I think I made a rushed decision

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I feel like an terrible human being.
The last months I've been having spending time with this guy, and we got along pretty well.
Mostly because we have a lot of common interests in music, videogames and such. We had a great time together and I was looking forward to go steady with him.
But strangely, he kept pushing me away, rarely accepted to meet me at any other place that wasn't my home and sometimes suddenly bailed out of plans.
He was making it very difficult for me to go out with him. I communicated how i was feeling, and he said he last relation was really difficult and he needed to go through some mental blocks.
We decided to keep friends status...with some additional rights to sex

After some more weeks, this eventualy proved too difficult for me to handle with his unreliable behavior, and I texted him that I think It was better for me to back off, because I'm a really emotional person and couldn't understand why he was having such a hard time giving me a chance. He replied back that maybe he should've told me before he had asperger, but he doesn't like to make "a big deal about it".
A lot of things made sense for me and I inmediatly felt really relieved. He then asked me if I still would like to be his boyfriend and I said of course, that I liked him before and that doesn't change anything. He said he was afraid of his destructive behavior because very often he doesn't realize how he affect others. I said that I let him now. All grand. That was yesterday.

Now I slept through the thing and I'm really panicking. I feel like I may have taken this commitment too lightly, and I feel specially bad because I'm the one who was been insisting about it. He is a fun, smart guy but I may be understimating how sensitive I am and how much i need to spend with my couple. During the same conversation I asked him what kind of things bother him in a relationship and he replied "taking too much of my space is a no-no".
I don't consider myself to be clingy, but for an aspie I'd probably would be one.
What should I do? I feel he is opening up a bit, making a really big effort to go over some emotional bricks, and if I tell him that i precipitated, I may be setting him back Help.

Hmm I was in the same position a while ago. however what I find difficult to understand is that while you were able to have "just sex" with no emotional strings attached, you then find it difficult to deal with his emotions. For me that sounds strange. I think what you have to ask bluntly is, do you want a real relationship with this person or not?

I wasn't able kingfisheryes. I tried for some time, and failed miserably. And I failed because there were too many emotion strings for me.
And to your question, I definitely wanted to. Now, I hesitate. There's very little i know about aspies but I know very well how sensitive I am.

Communication..........

Keep that open and everything will fall into place if it is meant to.