My workmates, one in particular, think I should go abroad this year, despite having been abroad. Last year I did go to Turkey by myself and I enjoyed it because it was my first time abroad ,other then a day trip to France and on the second day, I found someone who I could relate to and we spent the rest of the holiday together. This took away much of the loneliness that would have felt if I did not find her.
The second time round, the vacation could well be the most depressing time, as I will be by myself and if I did not enjoy myself the vacation would be a complete waste of time and money. Especially that I do not have the money in first place, even though I am expecting some bonuses and overtime this month.
I remember the trip to Brighton on a very hot day, it must have been hotter then it was when I went to Turkey. I didn’t know that it could be hot at the coast because of the cold sea breezes.
One the long trip there had some benefits to my car as it cleared out the engine a little bit and my car stops randomly stalling. But it was such a loneliest experience that the joy a better working car did not help at all. My depression was luck a ton of bricks only thing I could do after a couple of hours is go back home.
Even my journey home was depressing and I was crying despite, the fact that driving on the freeway was all new experience to me and very scary driving at such high speeds; scared the wheels would fall off.
My workmate said it is not worth putting my life on hold until I find someone as I will come over desperate, but how can a lonely vacation that puts me more into the red make things batter.