Lonliness

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Hi :)
I'm not sure where to start....
I'm actually not sure why I'm here, either... I guess because I don't feel like I belong anywhere... but I will summarize my topic.

About two months ago, my girlfriend of four years left me. Her name was Lauren, and she was a great person. We met in high-school in 2010, and decided to go to the same College to stay close to each other. I found out she was an aspie two years into our relationship, and it helped me to understand her incredibly well. Actually, being with her helped me to understand Aspergers in general... Anyway, we had our ups and downs throughout our relationship. We moved in together in 2013, and I provided for us while she went to school. Things were okay. There was a huge problem that I tried to ignore, however, which was that we had moved in together too early. I wasn't what she deserved at the time, and I wasn't financially stable enough to be what I wanted to be to her. Our situation put a lot of stress on our relationship, and there were hard times as well, which didn't help. This was compounded by the fact that her parents and friends didn't approve of me. The worst time in our relationship was when I lost my job in 2014. It put a huge amount of stress on us, and she had begun feeling depressed with me. We ended up having a huge fight, and she left me. She also completely stopped talking to me. I feel regretful and sad that I pushed for us to move in together so fast, and that we didn't wait to move forward until the right time. Her and I had plans to make a family together, and a life together, and I decided to go into the military after losing my job in 2014 because it's an amazing opportunity to improve life and have real financial stability. I wish I could talk to her, and I wish I wasn't alone, because I feel like I can't connect to anyone anymore. I put everything into her, and I can't imagine having a family with someone else. It's not just because she broke up with me recently, either. It's an honest, unbiased feeling I have.

try and get back together with her if thats what you want. feel sorry for you but at least youve experienced what its like to have a girlfriend

Well, I've tried, but she hasn't replied to any contact I've tried to make with her in 2 months. It sucks because I don't understand why someone would do that to someone else

Typically because they don't wish to have further contact.
Sometimes people don't wish to even know you anymore.

There's people I was once very close to (exes mostly, but not exclusively) who I would flat-out refuse to acknowledge if they tried to contact me; I'd go as far as to claim to not be me if they tried to speak to me in person.

I'm sorry this happened to you, I went through similar a few years ago.

Because she wants nothing to do with you and there's nothing you can do but accept it and move on.

It's also possible that she told you WHY she was leaving (possibly 4,288 times), you didn't like the reason / accept the reason / in any way, shape or form alter your behavior on the basis of that issue & she left you for cause.

That's not what happened, but regardless of the reason, it's not right to just leave someone and never speak to them again or care if they're homeless or even in good health.

I've been on both sides, so I'm not sure there's a good answer. My guess is that she might have some residual anger about your relationship.

It might not be 'right' but she's still entitled to it. It's mean, but there's circumstances where we're entitled to be mean and selfish.
If you're no longer a part of her life she may not care what's going on with yours.

None of that matters. There is still somethig called human decency, and you just don't treat people like that. Especially someone who you were romantically involved with. It doesn't matter what's going on, you don't leave someone homeless with no money, and don't talk to them. You don't do this to your friends, or people you end up caring about if you have a falling out with them. You don't do this to your family if you ever get mad at them. You just don't abandon people.

but that's what she's doing isn't it?
or trying o punish you?

i know what you mean you can't imagine someone else in her place and how it is to have that constant feeling that drives you to seek her
but also know how it is to be constantly turned off and not spoken to or given any attention to...

and don't know yet a cure for all of this.
in either direction-
moving over , can it truly be accomplished?
or getting her back...that's up to her(at this point) sadly