Feels guilty of having an impossible crush

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So this will be weird, and I know it's crazy.

But!

The last couple of days I've been a bit obsessive with Nightwish, and especially Tuomas Holopainen, since I recently bought his new cd The Life and Times of Scrooge, which frankly is some of the best music I have heard EVER!

Unfortunately I think I have begone developing a crush on him, since reading his biography on his own and Nightwish's website, we have a lot in common, loving Disney and Hans Zimmer, making beautiful music, and admitting, he looks gorgeous.... And I do not like that!

The reason is that I have a boyfriend, whom I love and cannot imagine leaving. Fills me with angxiety thinking about it.

But my head keeps going on and on with "What If"s. What if I ever met him? What if I got to make the films that I want to make, and get him to do the soundtrack, which is one of my biggest dreams of doing?? I know it's far out, which is also a part of why it annoys me so.

I have never had a crush on a celebrety before. And I feel guilty. I want it to go away.

It'll pass. Don't worry about it.