I am a 25 (almost 26) year-old Southern male, and I still haven't found my Katie Scarlett O'Hara. When I was in school, I was a troublemaker, and none of the girls wanted to be around me because of my actions. I would pretend I was fixing a bayonet to or loading a C.S. Richmond rifle. I would throw myself down the stairs making people think I was sick, trying to seek attention.
I would curse people out, say nasty things about others. I once masturbated in the bathroom at school and put a condom on a classroom door handle, as well as flashed a condom in a female teacher's face, which I got detention for.
I've met women online, but never made anything serious out of them. I'm always flirting with women of the wrong kind. They're already either in a bf-gf relationship, or married. I've even met a lesbian couple, twice in my life, but I backed away. My heart is so broken.
What must I do?
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Chris Poole