Issues I'm Working On

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-I don't have and can't get friends.
-I attained expert skill level in Platonic relations, put in +10,000 Hours. See the 10,000 Hour Rule.
-Is a novice in romantic relations, still can't talk to strangers for very long. Either because I get nervous and leave or they want me to leave.
-I'm talking to girls at work, trying to get as comfortable as possible around them.
-I avoided interacting with women for most of my life, all because of irrational fear and crippling social anxiety.
-Most likely I'll lose my V-Card when I'm 35 or 36.
-I have no experience getting intimate with a women. Kissed only thee times. The girl intiated it all three times.
-If still a virgin at 39, I will go to one of the legal brothels in Nevada.
-Plus I can't let myself look for romantic interests because I'm still living with my parents.

I can't get friends, the last friend I made was back in Freshman year of High School at the age of 15. I'm 33 and I quit trying to make friends back when I was 25. The rejection just got too hard to bare. I've been friendless since a couple months ago, my last friend left me.

So when I get a girl, that girl will have to accept that I don't have and can't make friends. Which doesn't make sense because I'm very social savvy in the Platonic social area of life. I consider myself an expert in that the Platonic area, I put my 10,000+ hours in. As for the romantic area, I'm a novice.

I started working on the romantic social area of life last year. Mystery Method is supposedly the way to go, if you want to become an expert if not a master. I'm approaching this a lot differently, meaning I'm trying to talk to a lot of girls to get comfortable interacting with them. My Approach Anxiety is pretty low, but I get nervous and leave, or they give off signals that they want me to leave.

I hope not doing approaches and just interact with female co-workers will help solve that problem. I should've done this when I started this journey, because I basically have no experience interacting with women. So my V-Card will probably be lost when I'm 35 or 36.

I'm very embarrassed by the fact I have no experience romantically with women, I don't know how or when to make a move, kiss correctly, and all the other intimate stuff. I have kissed a girl, but the girl was the one to initiate it. I kissed her three times total on three separate days, the third kiss was the one I got right I think. That's the only romantic experience I have. So, I don't know how a girl will react to a virgin in his early thirties, that the farthest he ever went was kissing.

I have a fail safe plan. If I don't get a girlfriend and lose my virginity by my 40th B-day. I'm going to Vegas and spend some time and money in one of the legal brothels. I just know I have eleven more years to accomplish something that hundreds of millions my age have already accomplished without getting "professional help".

The worst part I can't really approach women, beacause I'm still living with my parents. I can't even bring myself to practice, just because I'm still living with my parents. I feel I don't deserve a GF because of that fact. Till I accomplish a goal I set out to achieve six years ago, the goal is to get a better paying job that will allow me to move out. I will not get a room/housemate all because I've had a lot of very bad experiences with people.

Have you tried to date culturally-Asian women?

Usually they don't see single people living with parents as an issue (but as a norm).

No, I have not. Those are going to be interesting to find.

Then try to find Asian/Eastern/MiddleEastern women; 1st-2nd generations are less likely to have a such western value.

If you focus on dating these demographics, the first thing you will notice that living with parents/siblings suddenly becomes no issue - because they're usually living with their families themselves or used to live with their parenrs just before they move to your country (ie. foreigh students, who may be living in dorms).
They will not make you feel it's something alien because it is the norm for them; this is a cultural fact.

However, many of them may expect you to have a good job and a car; even more than western demograhics.
Each demographic has its cons.

The only Asian women I'm attracted to are Japanese women. I don't have a good job, work as courtesy clerk for a grocery store.

Um... honestly you picked the most difficult asian demography; English isn't very commonaly spoken among japanese.

Don't limit yourself to one demography.

wow...just wow. this site really never fails to comfort me. knowing im not alone in this world...ah well. i have the same issues, almost all. im just curious why the vcard matters so much in the western world.