Crush Roadblocks

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I’ve posted here about some issues before but I haven’t actually done anything, but it should feel like I’m doing something, so that’s why you’re reading this. Something I seem to have realized recently is that I’m going through definite phases as to whom I have the most interest in. Basically this whole time I’ve been thinking about three people:

Person 1: A male that I focused on from February through April. I once handed him a note asking if he wanted to hang out, but I never got a response. He fits the gay stereotype, but I’m not sure that he likes guys, so it might be worth giving up on him.
Person 2: A female that I focused on since April. She seems like she might match my personality type, but the impression I get is that she’s afraid of me. The way I see her interact with certain people gives me the impression that she may be going out with someone.
Person 3: A female whom I’ve only felt very strongly about over the past few days. We interacted a bit in middle school, so she isn’t as freaked out by me as the rest of my classmates (but has still commented when I’ve become uncharacteristically loud). She’s actually spoken to me a few times recently, but I’ve never thought it appropriate to respond and start a conversation. I thought I might have heard her during study hall mention a boyfriend or girlfriend, though.

Anyways, I have some serious doubts and worries that are inhibiting my progress. I have a tendency to scare people. This is because I am usually very quiet, and also because I occasionally speak loudly, so I don’t feel comfortable talking to people who've seen me like that. That, and seeing how my interests have shifted over the past few months, I’m afraid that in the unlikely event that I enter a relationship, I might find myself losing interest, making the whole thing moot. Also, I feel like I don't want to compromise whatever perceived personality I have right now, because I don't want people to think "Oh crap. That scary kid's in love."

I figure people must have conquered similar impediments before, so I’m asking what y’all think.

Don't bother with the first one. Everyone in the f*****g world is straight apart from me and you.
At least Person3 seems to like you though maybe. At least you talk to her. I hope it works out foryou anyway. I have similar problems but will probably never fix them for me. I reckon the Person3 sounds most likely. But advice on things like this from me is pointless. I know nothing abouts tuff like this really.
Good luck with that though.

What you should do, is go for whomever you want to be with and if it doesn't wprl out, at least you have a couple second choices.

don't worry about it so much, you will only wind up worrying yourself sick

The thing is, I only talked to her back in the sixth grade. She's commented to me occasionally this year, but I can rarely think of how to respond. Once she was nearby and commented on my use of the word "bollocks". One time where I started a loud rant in jest with my friend (about clones taking over the planet), she remarked how on how rarely she can actually hear me talk. The only time I really felt I could respond to something was when she asked me a definite question (did my neck hurt). And actually, those are about the only times that I think she talked to me this year (that's about as much as anyone in my study hall's talked to me all year ).



Still, I couldn't stand to have whoever I asked and their friends looking at me oddly for the rest of the year. And what's worse is that my friend is in each class with these people, and I don't want them looking at me oddly for the rest of the year.

Person number three spoke to me briefly today. She asked if I had new glasses (which I did) and then said that they looked nice. I'm not really sure how to take that, or if I'd even be dwelling on it were the comment delivered by some other person. I feel like this past week or two I've had the most chances to talk to her all year, but I'm afraid because I don't know what to talk about and if I should even talk other than to answer whatever she's asking me. It feels a bit disappointing because it's the most any of my crushes has ever talked to me - ever.

Actually, the comment resulted in my having a longer conversation with some other girl whom I've spoken with before in my class about glasses (whose name I don't even know - I have some problem where I can only remember the names of a few people in school).