Do you feel this way too when someone hits on you?

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First of all, you need to know that I have a very low self-esteem.

Whenever a guy starts hitting on me I feel disgusted, like I'm about to puke.
Two years ago I met a guy. He was nice and I liked him. One day we were talking in class and out of the blue he asked me whether I had a boyfriend. When I said I didn't, he said: "I can't believe it!"
That made me so f*****g uncomfortable. I know that people generally enjoy it when they get complimented like that. Not me. My heart started racing, and not because I was excited, but because I was getting anxious. I literally stormed out of the room and from that moment on I couldn't help but see this guy as a very repulsive individual.

I don't understand. I liked him before this happened. And my mind suddenly changed after I realised he liked me back. This same thing happens every single time someone hits on me. I just feel there is something wrong with that person if he likes me, because I'm ugly as hell, boring as hell, etc.
After I realise that someone fancies me, I change my entire personality when I'm around them. I become unpleasant, impolite, rude. Really a horrible person.

I remember once when I was in middle school I thought there was this guy who liked me. I felt DIRTY for the whole weekend (dirty is the right word, I still remember how dirty I felt). I went to this store and bought a skirt and I thought in disgust "this is so feminine". The simple fact of buying a skirt made me feel like s**t because skirts are a female thing and boys like girls and I was a girl who didn't want boys to like me. Then, on Monday when I went to school I found out that boy didn't actually like me. In fact, he liked another girl. I will never forget the relief I felt!
I know this is probably a confusing story but I don't know how else to word it. I guess it's so confusing because I myself am very confused about how and why I feel this way.

I just want to know if anyone here feels the same as I do.

No, but I find it an inconvenience when guys I am not interested in obsess about me. It doesn’t happen much now that I’m older, thank goodness.

Generally I think guys must be desperate if they like me so I guess I sort of see where you’re coming from.

I can't directly identify with this as I'm not sure that I've felt so strongly about something that it makes me feel physically ill. Do you mean that it makes you very excited (it's Christmas eve and you're 6 years old), very apprehensive (why do they want to talk to me over other people who I feel are superior?) or very angry (how dare they!). Also, it might help if you told us how old you are (advice for the over 30's is likely to be very different for the under 18's).

Anyway, I hope that you feel better about yourself through communicating to this community how you feel, especially if you've not told anoyone before. Anonymously on the internet or not, this is not an easy thing to do. Also, I don't think that your actions are unreasonable. I think that they seem to be effective at preventing you from getting hurt (you don't know what anyone's intentions are, so by starting from a position of mistrust they have to prove that they won't hurt you before you can let them get too close). However, I think that in the long term it is important to be able to learn how to allow people that you want to get close to to be able to do so.

Is there anyone you can talk to about this physically? Do you know/know of any counsellor's, therapists or similar? I feel that these might be people who are in a much better position to help you explore these very complicated feelings.

Poor guy...

Maybe you are a closet lesbian - it seems you find the idea of guys liking you disgusting.

People don't hit on me. If they did I'd feel uncomfortable. Not disgusted, more anxious really.

I am like this only not so strongly I guess. I get very uncomfortable when complimented. I don't dislike a person who likes me, but if I think they do I can never be normal around them again. Since I am incapable of casual flirting I just get embarrassed and avoid them at all costs even if I wish I could talk to them. I probably do come off as very rude when I do talk to them because I get even worse about small talk and more short with them than even my normal disastrous attempts at social interactions.

I would really like a girl hitting on me for a change. Not uncomfortable at all for me.

As for your case... maybe that's not about the men that you feel disgusted. Maybe it's about how you feel your heart racing, sweat pouring, face blushing and all these uncomfortable feelings. In the end you associate things in the subject becomes the problem when actually it's how your body responds to the compliments that you feel weird about.

Just a theory.