I have been reading and occasionally posting to this forum for a while now. I am NT. I have been trying to find answers to the problems I have with my former aspie friend, who has hurt me in many ways and cut off contact with me 7 months ago. I have had an extremely difficult and painful time trying to navigate the aspie world to try and understand and find some kind of peace in my heart over my failed friendship with him. I have found both support and attacks here. I've learned a lot from you. I've seen little bits of my friend in so many of your posts and this has helped me. But my situation with my friend is incredibly painful for me, and he doesn't show any signs that he will ever want to resume a relationship with me. I'm devastated but I am trying to accept that he will never ever be capable of explaining why he did the hurtful things he did. He will never be capable of a meaningful relationship with me. I held on for a very long time trying to fix the situation but he will not have anything to do with it.
I need to find a way to leave him behind so my heart can find a way to move on. This is something I have not been able to do. I keep letting my mind go back to some happy moments, I keep coming back here, and I've tried communicating with him. But there is nothing I can do to rebuild a relationship he does not want. It's so sad for me.
It's time for me to go, because I have to stop all things that I do to try to hold onto him, and this forum is one of them. I need to find a way to heal.
Goodbye. Of course, I'm weak, so I might find myself coming back but I really need to stop. Holding onto him is causing me too much pain and suffering and it's affecting my life in a very negative way. Though I don't know how to let go, and there is so much pain in that to.
I have to stop waiting for something that is never going to happen.
14 Mar 2018, 12:18 am
