Aspie Woman In Love

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Hello all,
I am in my late 20s , & I am head over heels in love with someone who is much older than me. He is in his late 40s. He still makes me nervous when I am around him, still makes me giddy with excitement when he calls and texts, & makes my heartbeat faster when I am on my way to see him.
My reason for writing this post is : although I am in love with him, I don't truly understand it. I often mimic the behaviors of others (women and how online says you should act when you like someone), overthink, and panic inside when he is nice to me. He is an NT and he knows I have autism. I am on the high-achieving spectrum (Regardless of where people say we are on the spectrum, I respect anyone with autism and any disability as we are all one in the same.)
Recently, he told me that I can stay at his place and that he likes me. I am excited and very nervous.
I have moments where he is nice, but I am emotionally unresponsive , only just surface with things. I am worried that my episodes of autism are going to cause me to lose the man I love because I will do something to mess it up. It has been five years since we met and we are fine. How do I display my emotions properly ?
What can I do to combat my nervousness?
I am wondering if anyone else has dealt with the things I described and how they may have handled it.

I am asking for advice from both NTs and Aspies.

If he's known you for five years and that you're autistic and he like you after all this time, I don't think you need to worry too much about how you come across. If he can see that you're nervous then he's not going to be put off by that. If you're going to his place then he's very much the one entertaining you, so to speak, the pressure is on him not you.

When you are in love, you are always afraid to do or say something wrong (would you be on the spectrum or not)

I think the response to your poll will very much be gender dependent.

That's true. I would be willing to date a girl who was younger than me as long as she were legal but I am NOT interested in women much older than me. The reasons are that I'm immature & don't have my sh!t together with life. An older women is a lot more likely to act like a mom with me which I do NOT want. I also really like being emotionally supportive within a realtionship & think that is my strong point within one. A younger women is alot more likely to want/need that. My 2nd realtionship was on her terms cuz things kind of had to be & I felt like she didn't really listen to me or value my input with things. I kind of felt like a dad at times with all 3 of my relationships(my 1st two cuz they were younger & my current cuz she has some issues she's dealing with even thou we're the same age) & i'd much rather feel like that than feel like my partner is a mom to me.

I am 22 and would happily date a woman of 42+. Maturity and intellectual/cultural interests are the first things I go for in a woman, and I think most women under thirty lack those things (I'm not being sexist, though; I think this is equally true and indeed more so of men in that age group).