I've been on four dates with this girl so far. First date was ok, like a 6. Second date was much better, and much more fun, left me wanting a third date.
We went on a fourth date the other night, and hung out and stuff in her apartment. Things are still awkward, but we were drinking and it got way less awkward. Hooked up, told each other we liked each other, and so on. In the moment it just kind of felt right to say it! Asked her to come to a party with me in a week!!
One of the issues is that when we talk, we don't always connect very well—we're both super awkward, and for me it usually takes very specific types of people for me to connect with very quickly. So somemties, we'll talk and it we'll be fine, but other times, its super super awkward (at least for me) and that's when it feels like the ROCD is really kicking in...but those times are really meh for me, even though there are other times when I feel a little giddy, and get butterflies and such!
And while I'm not feeling large feels yet or a super strong connection, there a definitely a lot of different things that I like about her. I'm also very attracted to her, in a "physically drawn to" kind of why, as opposed to just acknowledging it. I'm fine to go on more dates, and would push it to 5, but I don't want to lead someone on either. I'm just worried because in my experience, four dates is where you're starting to cross a line where things may or not start to become expected!!
09 Apr 2019, 9:16 pm
