Slightly worried, but not panicking

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I'm seventeen years old and I have never fancied anyone. I have sexual urges, but they are completely cut off from anyone or anything. I know it can take longer for an AS person, but for some it doesn't happen at all and I don't want to be one of those. I'm quite mild in the sense that I have some (rudimentery) social skills, and I don't have a problem with touch if I can see it coming, so I can't see any real reason why not - except that I have never had any romantic or sexual feelings about anyone.

You could be asexual. There are different levels of it. I don't think it's anything you should worry about though unless it's making you particularly distressed. I never really liked anyone I knew until I was 18. Before that I just liked random people I'd never even spoken to - so I was only physically attracted to them but nothing else until recently (I'm 19 now). Probably different from your situation but what I mean is that there is still time for it to change for you.

I was very shy, even into my twenties. I thought of myself as very un-attractive physically. I also had the odd ASpie clothing thing. It was very frustrating to hear my mates talk about some girl they had bedded. I just wasn't sure what the dating routine was all about.
So don't feel alone ...

lol That's pretty much the same as I am now. Although I have no mates to hear talking about stuff anymore. Can't see it changing any time soon though.

Sopho, it's only my wife's graciousness that keeps me from slipping back into the weird ASpie clothing thing. She informs me gently that a certain outfit isn't proper. I still don't grok 'fashion.'

The shirts I wear are actually the same as other people wear, and bought from a decent shop, they just look bad on me and are too big. But I can only wear baggy stuff because of the way it feels and things. Although I admit the pants I wear are too baggy usually. But I don't care. I should, but I still don't lol.

Do you enjoy looking at pictures of people you find attractive? What do you fantasize about? Any sexual dreams?

There are a lot a possible reasons for your problem: late puberty, low hormone levels, depression, sexual abuse, severe anxiety, repressed homosexuality, medication side-effects. Ruling out any obvious medical cause, it may either be anxiety or something like schizoid personality disorder.

You're probably just asexual. No huge deal, really. You get to avoid a lot of the s**t that others deal with, though, which I suppose is good.

I wouldn't worry about it yet; it often takes the right guy.

I wasn't interested in boys at all until 19, and I think I can count the number of guys that have caught my attention on one hand since then (24 now).

. . . It's soo bad when you're with other girls and they start talking about how hot a guy is in, and all you can think of is how you'd like to draw him :p

I have had what I think you are describing for my whole adult life, and I am middle aged now. I think of it as an absence of lust, and I have wondered if it is part of my AS, or just my own bizzare trait. I have not seen anyone on this site write of it, and I actually hope you do NOT have the same trait I have, because if you do, I have to tell you that it doesn't go away. I remained a virgin for many years, not because I couldn't attract a woman, but because when it came to sex, I found the actual presence of a woman a distraction. My fantasies were ABOUT women, but having a real woman right in front of me, or next to me, did nothing to arouse me. This was not 'performance anxiety', though after some unsuccessful encounters, that later entered into it. It was in its pure sense a simple indifference to the visual and tactile sensations that should have aroused me. And while I had a psychological desire to copulate, I had no physical desire to do it--if I hadn't learned from others where I was supposed to stick that thing, it never would have occurred to me what to do with it. Eventually I literally taught myself to ignore the presence of my partner and concentrate on what was in my head. Alcohol helped me do this--it seemed to help me to ignore the physical presence of another person and to draw into my own head, which was the only place I could find arousal. I have overcome all this with great difficulty and am now married. But to this day, having intercourse is something I "pull off", and not really something I enjoy.