Drama over.

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A long complicated drama, heartbreak and jealousy and insanity (literally). Somewhere along the lines my feelings changed and I just lied to myself from there. I'd get into it, but I'd rather not. That's the point.
Now it's done...
And in the end, I looked back and realized something. I hate that b*tch.

It always kind of sucks when you realize that, but arent you glad you know now and can move forward from here?

Been there, done that... (although it was an element of her that I didn't like, not her as a whole... it takes alot for me to just completely hate someone...

It sounds like you're not quite over her, then. Were you together long?

I don't hate her as a whole by any means. Just things she's done have left resentment. And I also hate the fact that she seriously believes in magic (things like astrology).



We were never really together, it was a drama. And that's why it never became anything and all turned to bitterness. Something about watching her go off with one 20 year old high school drop out druggy to another (she was 16!) soon after saying she just didn't want to be in a relationship for a long time, pretty effectively changed my feelings for her.
I never really loved her anyway. She was obsessed with me for a lot of reasons, and I was obsessed with the fact that a girl actually liked me. Aside from that, from the way we worked together and our attraction to each other, it might have turned into something, but it was just drama and heartbreak and eventually that was all she was to me.
I guess I'm not really sure how I feel, because for some reason I do have some strange affection for her, but I can't think about that now...

It sounds unhealthy, I think you should stay away from her and try to focus on other things. Don't waste your energy hating her, use it to love other people instead.

In the end, you're probably right
The problem is, when she's nice to me, I feel really good about our relationship as it is. But the despair and anger she can cause...
I can't really justify ending the relationship, at least not to her.
It's not even her fault... well it is, but it's all things she's done in the past.
I feel like I should focus elsewhere.
But I don't want her to hate me or anything and whenever I try to make her understand my feelings she just insults me.

Drama takes 2 people. I'm sure she has good qualities, but it's not worth it if you feel like you do. It's possible to be polite to her, if you encounter her, without feeding her desire for drama. Good luck!

Yeah thanks. I guess I just need to detach. Very recently I think she's stopped thinking life is a fantasy. I honestly think she wouldn't make much more drama. But I'm just not sure if I want to deal with her because of the way she makes me feel.
Like I said, it really isn't her fault, I get worked up.

I can try and detach: just be polite. The key is to not think about her, I can usually control that. But the problem is if I'm around her and I try to do that, it's like I'm ignoring her.
Veh, Sleepy...sleepy....
Weird considering I went to bed at 11, slept until 8:40, then went back to bed at 10 and slept until 3:30. That's about 14 hours and 10 minutes.
I think I'll sleep now.

Yeah she doesn't even seem to care.
Guess I timed it right then.
It's all within myself from here.

If you hate the b***h, it shouldn't be hard to forget her and meet new people.