More of my writings - Nicole

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"Damn her" He'd say. She makes me so weak. I put all my fears and inhibitions behind me
when I'm talking to her; she makes me so free. I don't bother to think of "taken," or "not
meant to be." I just wanna talk to her. If I'm being stupid, and it feels this good, I'm
ready to go jam a crayon up my nose

"My heart is yours, to fill or burst, to break or bury, or wear as jewelery...whichever you
prefer." My face really, really hurts from all this smiling...and "his" voice is nowhere to
be found, I like that. Finally something shut him the f**k up. =P

Not that I haven't tried to hold back. I put up my impenetrable logic barrier, and thought
I was safe. She broke it all down without a sweat. I tried to put it back up, but this
Siren's song just had to be heard. I'm happily lured to the craggy rocks of uncertainty.

But, even with all those feelings, I'd sooner sink into the deep sea rather than give pause to
her sweet song for even a moment. She's a Goddess, and I, a mere mortal. While I may long
to have her at my side, my feelings could and would never get in the way of her happiness.
I just wouldn't allow it, she's too special.

I'm a little nervous and frightened at admitting that. And I don't really know what to do.
I'm not some desperate stalker, and if need be...I could let her go. At least the feelings
that I have towards her. "I really don't mind, what happens now and then...as long as
you'll be my friend at the end."

It seems like I've got it pretty much figured out, but I don't honestly think so. "The one
that got away." I'm tired of feeling that...and I'd like to have my place in the sun again,
it's so lonely here in the dark. What to do, what to do.

Bah, forget all of that, I just can't wait to talk to her again ^.^

Follow up:

She has the sweetest voice. The sweetest mind. The sweetest personality.

I'm worried I might rot =p.

I still don't know what to say...but I'm getting there. Just after a little taste of the unknown, I'm shaking much less. But I know it'll only start again the next time, and I'm glad it will. I get nervous because of the way she makes me feel, and I don't want that to fade.

It's so silly, before I call her I'll dress myself up as best I can, and even put on cologne. I smile so much easier thinking about her, and I walk not with my head down in deep morbid thought, but with my head held high staring at the sky in blissful contemplation.

Can't get her voice out of my mind. She speaks so softly...the pleasure I feel from hearing it gives me the courage to actually project my own voice. "When I walk beside her, I am a better man." Never before have I met any like her...for she's so much like myself. I always thought I was alone in the darkness of this World, but she shows me the light...

I want to be as close to it as I can. I hope I'm not being too reckless, but that voice...that beautiful mind, what choice do I have?

It's not even a matter of choice anymore. I've already chosen.

Wee for spamming my own thread, but here goes another:

How could she say that? That she loves me. I had just admitted my most awful faults,
things I would have NEVER exposed to anyone else. The most horrid scars of my being...so
dark, so ugly...how could anyone not turn and run upon discovering them, I've always
wondered.

I bore it all expecting to be rejected as usual...as I've always been. And to such awful,
but wonderful surprise of mine, she asked me to kiss her.

She sees right through me. More so than I ever could, in all the painful years of trying to
do so. No matter how elaborate a facade I thought I had put on. I don't understand. She
turns my World upside-down every time I talk to her.

"Slip inside the eye of your mind, don't you know you might find, a better a place to play."
She calls me a dreamer, and that I have a beautiful soul. I blush, and shrug it off. I
should be the one complimenting her.

I'm afraid to have all these feelings...I feel it can either lead me to Heaven, or Hell.
But, I've already lived through Hell all my life, and though I'm still scared...why
shouldn't I take a risk to be happy? No matter how irrational, I'm so sick of being
rational -.-

She really is special, so wonderful. I never imagined a person like her existed. It blows
my mind to think she would be interested in me, no, that she loves me. I won't be sleeping
easy anytime soon ^.^

Sweet. I wish you the best!

Wow.. A breath of fresh air, that was.

Pure, 100% HONESTY.

You have a great grasp of monologue, dude. Keep it up!

P.S. Try writing song lyrics!