I find that for me the emotion we might call ardor, passion, desire, or simply lust has almost a personified or at least an almost distinct and separate actualization. What I mean is that I feel it as an elemental and unstoppable force that exists inside me and radiates from me. The throne of Reason (to borrow a Platonic idiom) serves at its behest (although this is a complete inversion of Plato's philosophy). I can say that it drives pretty much every significant decision I make in my life (from career advancement to how I attempt to present myself to others). Now this does not mean my romantic desires are exclusively physical or sexual; I actually do want romantic relationship with a woman. There just happens to be a strong sexual aspect to it (and also a strong aspect of wanting a woman I can feel I understand and who understands me and who I treat with utmost regard).
I don't mean to sound crazy. I don't have some bizarre sexual fetish or fantasy. I do not see having sex or meeting a woman as fulfilling my life out of some cultural imperative; for me, it's a strong biological urge.
Does anyone else have such intense passion?
23 Mar 2008, 10:19 pm
