Rant thread for Love and Dating Board

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Ok so post rants here I'll start.
Maybe this should be stickied I like to post about my romantic issues and don't think it's as appropriate to do so in the haven as it is here.


Um well a girl in my club I like noticed I was upset.

I was upset for many reasons stress is one and we didn't have lunch is another but that one wouldn't make sense to her as it doesn't mean as much to her. I stood by the window while the other members of the club were at the table about 6 feet away talking, she kept looking over at me they obviously knew I was upset about something. When I walked off to go find some chairs for us I didn't say anything like I'll be back or I'm looking for some chairs be right back, no I just walked off and she followed me to the door ( I know this b/c I saw her in the reflection of the door) she must've thought I was rude for just walking off like that and not saying anything to them. Later as I came back out and she went in to look for chairs the other girl asked why I was being quiet I just made something up it was obvious cover but was an acceptable one that she couldn't argue about (this showed me that they knew I wasn't having any fun).

Later I think she followed me in after I went to the bathroom and (now I'm guessing at this b/c it has happened before and I imagine it's common although no one admits to it b/c it would look crazy) she was walking by just as I came out, I'm guessing she followed to see where I was going off to but she looked over at me as she walked by the hall (a little hall that leads to the mens room it's about 4-5 feet long) and she looked over at me and I just well I know I looked like I didn't care that I saw her and I didn't smile b/c I was upset and then even though she had been walking towards the doors (which were feet away from the bathroom) I get to the other set and she's right behind me (again reflection) and I didn't hold the door open which is something I always do for total strangers ESPECIALLY girls whether I like them or not and I just walked out and didn't bother to hold it open or look at her, I heard her say something to the effect of "whys he mad?" she sounded upset too I feel bad about that now of course it was rude and uncalled for.

Later it seemed to work out, I was sitting now in a chair in the shade while the others worked on some cans that were going to be recycled and she asked me why I'm not helping and I said I can't stand up for long because my knees will give out (which is totally true they do give out and hurt really bad if I stand to long but it was mostly just an excuse again) she said I could move my chair over there and I just did it normally I would keep sulking and never get better but I let myself go back and calmed down. We started talking again and had lots of fun and everything, might have made a few aspie style mistakes but they didn't seem to care, I had fun she was being playful and kicking me in the back b/c she rested her feet on the cooler I was sitting on while we talked. But when I sent her an email she replied with her usual lack luster comment as a simple response which is fine for most I'm sure but for me I was there to be smilies and happiness apparent in it, and if it isn't I think she isn't happy........

Right now I'm depressed and worried we'll never really be friends further than the club b/c we never even meet outside of club events and I don't know how to arrange a meeting with her, and my attempts (which have been slightly vague like, "we should meet so I can so and so" and she suggested I just drop them off somewhere and she'll pick them up later instead.

She does seem to want to be my friend for the most part but I can't be confident enough to accept that and I think I like her but she's in a long term relationship with a guy for over 2 years now and I don't think I have any real chance so I'm trying to accept that b/c I need friends that are female and she's really fun and attractive so I hope it works out.