AN EGOLOTER AND OPEN-MINDED POST
well, first of all I come from a country called Brazil. It's a country in South America, we are not hispanic, we are not the typical "latino", we are very mixed culturally. I am not a mirror-cracking material, and I am 21 and have never been kissed, whatever I don't want to be kissed.
I never know when a guy is interestead in me and when people say "he likes you" I say: "so what? I don't like him".
I 've fallen in love twice, one lasted 6 years and I am in love right now, but I scare the guys I like, they all run away from me. I am nothing they expect me to be, I DON'T MAKE SENSE, I have a very weird way of speech that scares anyone here like I am yelling or cheering all the time, I am the only asperger I know that is actually talkative adn abstract in the way of being philosophic, I love metaophors , I have my own but don't understand others' figures of speech, I am funny (I think I am, but nobody thinks so LOL). Here I am considered eccentric, and people have Compared me to Tim Burton's Corpse Bride.
I had traces of hyperlexia when I was a kid I taught myself how to speak foreign languages. Which didn't make my life easy. Because I am an adult and sometimes I mix words in spanish, english, portuguese, japanese... I suck at my own language. Here I am an asperger different from the other aspergers for being abstract and they called me Taly Da Vinci and Doctor Who. "Who is who?" Guess what? I don't watch tv and I have no idea who is Who, I only watched cartoons and animes in my preeteen life and right now when I HAVE TIME I only watch arabian and foreign channels which I don't understand but I watch for 3 hours like it's really cool and my sister says "are you pretending to watch tv?", and I don't know why! ^^ so it's like , maybe that's why guys don't like me, because I am senseless and the other aspies say "you're not aspie you know" and we are always fighting, no matter what it's mithology, philosophy, algorythms, euqations or theories, we are always fighting and it drove me into crisis SINCE I HAVE TO EXPLAIN EVERYTHING MY WAY, so I gave up on trying to talk to Brazilians aspies.
I like to be alone most of my time, but people love to be around me. :/
No, I am not self-pitting myself, I just wonder why I AM SO BORING. Ok, I will tell things that I have done, that are "weird".
I've started writing notes and letters to "my crush" and of course I included the wrappings of candies I ate, some seeds and leaves I found on the ground. I am a compulsive writter because I am very "pedantic" or "eccentric" or "ovewhelmed" when I speak. Here in Brazil people are always smiling, if you glance at someone by accident no matter how old this person is, this person will smile to you, I always smile back as I learned but they always go
. People say I look like the Corpse Bride and have a plastic face, I am really happy, what's their problem?
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