Destructive Urges

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I think I am more self-destructive in subtle ways. I have and have had violent urges sometime, but I rarely bring anything from inside my head to the outside world, violent or otherewise.

I get this weird urge to hit people when thier talking to me and I've gotten bored with what thier saying. Sometimes even when thier not talking to ME in particular. I just want to lash out at them. Nothing homicidal, but its always kinda worried me because it can be so strong sometimes.

Sometimes I feel like smacking people if they butt into my conversation or ignore something I said but I would never do it (I hope anyway)

Weight lifting has always been a good stress reliever for me. Particularly free weights because I can concentrate all my energy and attention into my form and technique. I'm told by my daughter's OT that heavy work (lifting, pulling, etc.) helps us deal with life somehow. Walking doesn't do it for me, only heavy work. I'm also a big fan of live fire target practice, but that's not always an option. I've found Delta Force to be a good substitute.

deos wanting to open car doors when their moving and jumping out, wanting to slit my wrists to see what it feels like, having thoughts of stabbing myself, comiting sucide cause i want to die young, wanting to die with a bang, qualify with destructive thoughts.

now, what kind of person are you to dare to have violence in mind...i mean c'mon destructiveness is no solution to a bad hair day. Ha. kidding. i feel that way all the time...like breaking s**t up..but i don't..i usually just let my head explode, and them i'm in a coma for days.

I was never very good at handling my anger. Even to this day the most I can do is prevent myself from getting angry, and it's a good thing I've managed that. If you can get me to the point where I'm most enraged, I lose complete control. I'm not really proud of that...but I've punched holes in doors, smashed things without considering thier value, injured myself, and screamed louder than I thought I could at whoever or whatever was pissing me off. That's a horrible way to handle it though...I always feel really embarrased flying off the handle like that. I make myself look like a toddler, and I hate being thought of that way.

An ounce of prevention is worth a pound of cure I say. I think the best way to control your anger, is to master an avoidance technique that works for you.

-AA

I try to do the same thing, keep it all in, after all, that is how I was raised. My anger or bad feelings were forbidden growing up, so I learned to keep it all in.

I also have a history of self injuring behavior, haven't done it in a long time though.

I would love to bury a lead pipe in my girlfriends head for putting me through this traumtic event. Also one through my mothers head everytime she nags me with no regrets.

I get very destructive when I lose my temper. Just yesterday I smashed my calculator...a TI83+ calculator with a special clear battery door and red slide cover that my mother got for me. I've had it for over two years. I learned to programme on it and everything. I was really attached to that calculator. Maybe this'll teach me to keep my temper.

My poor laptop computer has seen better days......

I'm actually impressed it still functions at all.
Way to go Dell.

Luckily for me (and the laptop), motorcycling has proven to be a very good outlet (same with most people actually). But the cold weather has set in and I'm getting a little short with people already since I can't ride.

I get destructive urges ALL THE TIME.Like,I'll just be sitting/standing not doing anything,then all of a sudden I'll hear,"Break that window" or "Kill your mother".Very strange...

-SpaceCase

My mum fixed my calculator for me. She can fix anything.

-clap,clap- ^_^


-SpaceCase

i have that feeling right now! i really really need to go punch something. i should get a punching bag haha

I usually try to do something physical, like running at the indoor track we have or I play a first person shooter game. Ironic, I though that I was the only one who got antsy like this.