Anyone have friends when they were younger?

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Grade school, high school, college- all nightmares. Same behavior... practically a mute log. I did not know how to be animated and show those lively facial expressions and gestures that came naturally to other people, same with the tone of my voice, and I would simply sit in a corner or leave the room altogether and avoid everyone in elementary school. I had a short temper and was easily irritated so I did not take well to much teasing. So because I did not lie down and take it, I was not a target of horrible bullying, but it still did happen a lot. I did not reach out to other people, nor did i engage in their conversations or try to relate to them. In my neighborhood, I would kinda wander around by myself a lot, and I would talk to kids I ran across occasionally, but for the most part i was the 'weird kid.' i was a social pariah and the kids were very mean to me. I guess i was not socially aware or socially conscious and I lived in my own little world so I behaved in a way that one behaves when they are not socially conscious. Uninhibited. Free. This made me an easy target.This behavior continued through middle school, into high school, into college. I had a very painful upbringing after age ten with very cruel people so I became even more inward, timid, and intentionally socially repressed myself out of fear of reciprocation and judgment. High school I made a few 'in school' friends, people i would talk to during lunch and only during lunch... but I had no idea of how to strengthen these bonds. Sometimes, I would intentionally put a block on these relationships out of severe fear or maybe agoraphobia or something... for example if we ran into each other in the bathroom i would ignore them completely and avoid eye contact, same if i ran into them in a public place. I cant really say why for sure. I felt fear, pressure to perform, and when seeing these acquaintances i was mostly... depressed all the time. Inside my head in silence is my comfortable, safe place. It has been since I could think in words. To draw myself out of my head and engage with others means to leave the warm safety of that. I think that might be a part of it. In college it was the same story, although I did make several friends who I liked a lot and really wanted to keep in touch with, I would still avoid doing things to strengthen or maintain the relationship like call, go out to events together, etc. And with the people that i did try with, it failed miserably, which with my hyperultrasensitivity, hurt A LOT with each failed attempt. And with the friends I had, inside my head I would be panicking the entire time. Thats right. Social interaction gave me panic attacks. Just being around people gave me them. Through each class I would silently endure a panic attack and uncontrallable racing thoughts, mostly very mean, self degrading thoughts. So, sorry to be long drawn out, but i do like to relate to other people in the hopes that i help someone. No, I did not have friends growing up. and i have no friends at this time.

I did have friends while I was young - but they were for the most part "outsiders" just like me. This made it a little bit easier to be myself around them, since in many cases we shared the same interests. I lost track of many of them in adulthood but recently got back in touch with some of them via Facebook. It's amazing what has happened in the last 15-20 years.

I have also had my share of betrayals as well by those who I thought were friends.

Oh, and Kristina/Spiral....my avatar is the "real me" too. I've since cut my hair and shaved my beard off, but it's the real me.

I used to have friends, i wasn't a very good friend though, while i liked them allot, i would use any excuse i could find not to go round to their houses, and never really talked about anything personal to them, i moved up into secondary school and it went down hill. I don't like to think about that part of my life any more though, even though it pretty much ruined my life. But what are ya' gonna do. I felt better when i left to be home educated but it didn't help my friendships and now i have none, so I've got to start from scratch again.

I had the most friends in elementary school when I was in a private school, where I was apart of a group of about four other girls my age. Once I switched over to public elementary school, I had a really hard time making friends and I mostly had acquaintances.

That kind of went on from middle school and now that I'm in high school I really only have two very close friends, and the other people I talk to is just to try to fit in. My two close friends kind of fit into the "outcast" group as well, and we all seem to have some kind of social issues, so we get along well.

I mostly seem to have problems with meeting with kids outside of school, because I get really anxious and worried and I usually end up not going. Although when I can muster up the courage to go, I usually have lots of fun.

At age three, I had two friends. These boys would come over my house almost everyday because my mother used to have daycare at home. I got along with them just fine. In fact, I remember them being alot of fun!
Things changed when I started kindergarten, though.

I had some friends when I was young. But they was rather partners for games, not really friends. When I am thinking how many friends I had, I think that I had about 3-4 friends...

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Thinking back on this recently I noticed that even in environments where I more or less "thrived" I didn't have many friends. I typically had 1 or 2 friends that I would talk to or play with(when I was a child) and that is it. In early adulthood I had a few friends at one point but it started out with one friend and I met them all through that 1 person. They were friends of my friend before they were my friend. So yes I had friends when I was younger but not very many. I haven't had any friends since I was about 20, though honestly I just stopped trying.

Nope, not until grade nine did I have a friend that lasted more then a month. And there were very few attempts at friendship before then, I thought (and still do) that most of the girls my age at school were shallow for talking about boys all the time. The guys in our class weren't even that cute, and they were all so horrible to me, that I didn't understand how people could crush on them.

I did have some "friends" who are in fact are backstabber.
And another friends who think I'm uncool anymore and prepared to leave as soon as possible:lol:

I'm still prefer my friends when younger...

I had a few friends when I was little. More than I have now, anyway. Socializing was easier for me then because it didn't even occur to me that people did so much communicating nonverbally, that my friends might not actually like me, or that there could be so many little intricacies of conversation (like if somebody says the weather is nice, you're supposed to reply, and when someone asks how are you, the answer is always "fine").

I had no friends and did not socialize really in elementary or middle school. High school I finally had friends because I went to a high school with a big arts and sciences program.

I had quite a few friends over the years.

I always had lots of friends. I noticed a difference during my senior year of high school. They all kind of drifted off for various reasons. Now-a-days I've got one good friend, maybe two, and everyone else are pretty much just acquaintances.

I do sometimes have trouble seeing the difference between acquaintanceship and friendship. There are some people who I consider in the in between gray-area. Not really friends, but something more than acquaintances. If that makes sense to anybody.

Nope, my first true friend that was my age came in grade nine

I had friends, or at least a small group of kids I hung out with, through middle school. I developed severe depression and socially withdrew completely in high school, eventually stopped attending and got a GED instead. I didn't have any friends for a couple years while I lived with my parents and took community college classes. It wasn't until I went to an out-of-state college and lived in a dorm that I made friends again. Then I moved again to attend graduate school. Haven't been able to make any close friends in graduate school so far.

I had a lot of friends when I was younger. I made new friends easily until the dreaded puberty came along. I've been struggling to make new friends ever since.

Unfortunately, I either lost contact with my childhood friends or they ditched me for the "cooler" kiddies.