How do you feel being an aspie? Please respond

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I'm 14, and I've known that I'm an aspie for 4 years now, even though I was diagnosed at 4. My mum didn't want to tell me until I was old enough to understand who I am, and I'm grateful for that. Ever since I've known, I feel unique and good about myself. I don't mind at all HELL NO because I love being an aspie. Also it's good being independent and different to NTs. I love myself and who I am. Although being independent makes me feel lonely, thats the only downfall which is minor, because I know my socialism is bad.

I'm proud of who I am. Of course, it's all I've ever known so I don't know if it's better or worse being NT.

How many NTs do you know with the hyper-focus ability?


Just remember Aspire is just r added to aspie.

Honestly? I generally hate having AS. I find it extremely frustrating because of my excessive sensitivity to EVERYTHING, and because of how confusing I find people. I'm thankful for its benefits, for it's likely the cause for some of my more imaginitive literary inventions, but it's just so hard actually living everyday life.

Also, I'm really just not happy with how I am, and I kind of use AS as my scapegoat. I get angry too easily, I'm way too picky of an eater, I'm always unhappy except when I'm watching a movie I like or something like that (escape from reality), I can't relate to most people...I've just been rather miserable my whole life.

I'm generally pretty happy with being an Aspie. But then i've always been very comfortable with being myself. Even when i had problems with bullying at school and things like that, i was allways very sure of who i was.
It helped of course that i could escape the real world in my writing, in books, films and my imagination. Something that i still do often.
People have allways noted and commented on my internal self suffiency; i never go to other people for emotional support or seem to be swayed by peer pressure or the 'norms' of society. I don't know if this is AS or just me but i like that...the feeling that i am my own person, whole with needing outside imput.
Its linked to things like the fact that i've allways known what i wanted to do with my life. I've allways wanted to be a writer. That's it, its quiet simple. I'm the only one of my family and few friends i know whose like that.
Things like that feel good.
Obviously being lonely and feeling different all the time are the downsides of AS and can be very difficult. I found teenagehood tough (I'm 27) mostly because my sister and cousin and the friends i hung around with were all so interested in things which i found incomprehensible like boys and drinking and pubs and stuff.

At 32, I just feel confused. The more I learn (and I have to study it; my library has gotten pretty extensive) about how people behave, the more confused I get. I cannot imagine how some people can manage to say no wrong and get along with everyone when people are so ready to be offended. I study it constantly just to break even socially. I'm in a constant struggle to get social skills "out of my way". My best friend is one of those who can say no wrong and I wonder sometimes when he speaks how he gets away with it. All non-verbals -- it's gotta be!

I feel frustrated because I can say exactly the right things and still make enemies because I cannot back those words up with non-verbals. Either the non-verbals I send are wrong and chaotic, or when I'm at my best, I send NO non-verbals which, unfortunately, is considered negative by default. I feel trapped because I have no way to interact with people that has a good outcome.

My behavior is based on strict rules. Be positive and enthusiastic. Work hard. Trust God. All behaviors that seem to offend people somehow, particularly when I succeed in doing something. I feel restrained because I know I must never show joy in what I do because, if I do, someone becomes depressed and hates me for feeling it.

I feel... is it guilt?... at talking on these boards because I have never gotten a formal diagnosis. I hate psychologists. All they do is smirk at me and have tried to push drugs on me that made me ill and did no good. I self-diagnose based on my past and feedback from my parents. Still, there it is... guilt... and fear of talking to a psychologist. Fear of being told, "No, you're just depressed," and forced to go back on Zoloft or something, which did nothing but make me ill.

Finally, about the depression: I am not even close to depressed. I love going home and exercising my skills. When I am alone, I am the happiest person in the world.

I'm ok with having AS. If i didn't have it i wouldn't have any of the hobbies i have got now + all the interests of stuff.

To be honest since i was diagnosed a few years ago my life has been on the up as it's nice to know whats wrong with me at long last and now i am free of all the worrys.

Yep It sure is. Now if I can just manage to control it, I'll be laughing.

i feel as aspergers is a great part of me i would not be the same without it

im so greatful after 28 years of feeling like i wasnt worthy for this world

found out last summer why ( i am an aspie and knowing was the first step , then understanding)

now im able to talk bout it and explain to people who i am

i do find i varify what im tryin to say alot cuz ive been so misunderstood

lost so many friends, and lovers

all to find out its not my fault

i look forward know to learning how to communicate better

i also know its ok to want to spend alot of time alone ......cuz it takes longer to adapt and proceses (esp if something new has been presented)

well theres my 2bits

if any young adults want to contact me please feel free PM me let me know your age gender and location

im 28 female and live in western canada

I am proud to be an Aspie!