Oh yeah buddy that's me alright. I used to do just that. Now, though, I'm on this medication(Lexapro) that doesn't let me think about it. There's just no use doing it. I try to watch myself but all I do is turn into a shadow person. It's no fun. It doesn't make me any better. When I'm not on my butt 24/7 I tend to act goofy. Goofy makes me happy. It may not be socially acceptable, but it makes me happy. When you goof up just try not to think about it. It's done. It's over. There is nothing that you can do to change it. I used to think that when I messed up in front of somebody that they remembered it forever and condemned me to the wierd corner but nobody thinks about it as much as you do. Don't overanalyse it. I did and it made me miserable. Okay.
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"Love is an irresistible desire to be irresistibly desired." - Robert Frost