My mom doesn't like me being a loner

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You lot are reminding me what growing up was like... My Mum was always trying to arrange events and gatherings and needed lots of people about always someone visiting us or us visiting other people... My Dad very probably has some kind of mild AS too as he never liked it and says he gets worn out by socialising.

Even when I was 15-16 my mum was still trying to arrange... well I guess what you might call play-dates etc... She never did get that I liked being alone that being with other people was nice for about 10 minutes then just wore me out and got awkward once I had run out of energy for keeping up pretences.
And when I was younger she would constantly nag me about making more friends and force me to go to activity days, summer camps and I had to join the scouts, etc.

Moving out of my parents house made so many things so much easier.

The only issue I have with being alone for so long is a worry about staying mentally stable (its a bit of a phobia), as I can get very internal, spending hours and even days inside my own head. I do admit It would be nice to have someone around that could give me the space I need but also act as a safety line and make me feel grounded in reality.

I just find dealing with other people for any length of time exhausting.

Your mom, the problem is, she's likely going to complain about you, first in this case for having no friends, then when you get friends, she's going to complain about your friends. You're not going to win. If you get friends, congrats, if you don't, oh well.

The idea about RC plane clubs is a good idea, imo. Even without them being best friends with you forever or anything like that, you can likely make connections or learn more about your planes, how to modify or repair them better, etc.

But yeah, don't worry about your mom, because she's going to complain regardless. Besides, being a loner will get you in much less trouble generally than having a bunch of stupid friends that go drinking every night or something.

I am the mom of a 13 yrs old As girl.

From one NT mom's perspective:

We worry that we are providing you with the best possible skill set that we can manage so that you can function in the world.
The social skills are every bit a part of this as making a sandwich and taking care of hygiene and getting an education.

We want you to be happy and it can be heart breaking to hear you child say " I don't have any friend" and watch her struggle in social situations. My girl does have social desires but also doesn't mind and needs alot of alone time.

We feel keening the the hurt we feel you must feel at the absence friends - even though you might not feel it. Our heart aches for you. This is from love.
AS is hard to get you mind around, you can read about it - but it's really hard to get a good concrete grasp of what you experience is really like FOR YOU.

Also, there may be pressure on her from the outside...she may have a much better grasp of your individual needs but is under pressure from outside opinions from family or school professionals about what she should be doing as a parent to help you.
I recent had a teacher make a rather overwrought outburst during an IEP- "She need more social opportunities!! !" as she held her head in her hand. It was because she said my daughter had said she wasn't going to be in the annual variety show or do a field trip that had an overnight. Yeah, right like I'm going to brow beat the kid into doing an overnight with school mates or force her to do the variety show. I know my daughter is exhausted after school day from all that extra energy it takes her to get though the day. If I can get her to do more with gentle guidance then more the better but I'm not going to ride her about it any more than I would force feed her a new food she doesn't want to try. Anyway, the point is that she may experience outside pressure that she is not parenting you as well as she should and is trying to do what she thinks is best for you.

You should just try to get her to understand AS feeling on the subject better. If she can get her mind around how stressful and tiring it is for you she may temper her approach. But you should also make sure you do challenge yourself once in a while.

Hope this helps