Keeping in contact

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Hello, everyone. I was hoping someone could explain to me why nobody ever contacts me. I call, write visit people all the time, but sometimes I start wondering, if they really appreciate me, so I stop contacting them, hoping they will contact me instead and show me that I am of value to them, but I end up with a horrible feeling of loneneliss and despair because I won't be in human contact for days and weaks because no one contacts me. If they contact me finally, it's because they need something from me, such as money or work done for them. Then I get really paranoid, depressed and angry. Last time, I went into psychotic depression during which I had several meltdowns where I cut myself, bit my tongue, banged my head against the wall and tried committing suicide with overdosages several times. I don't know why I care this much about others, but I can't stand the loneliness and thought of me not having any value to the world. In that case, I might as well die because I will enjoy nothing else before this loneliness stops.
Thanks for helping.. and sorry for rambeling like this. Please keep focus on the main question.

i hope you are doing ok right now. what you describe is something that every human being has if they do not have social interaction. i don't know why exactly but all humans feel that way. ostracism causes people of every culture, men and women to have certain stages they go thru, similar to grief. the bottom line is ostracism reduces and eventually extinguishes prosocial behavior. it makes a person have a higher pain threshold. this is a survival instinct. there is a possibility that someone could only be familiar with being treated badly. this may cause more tolerance foror even unawareness of dysfunctional people. a very abusive person, that is dismissive, shunning and derogating others, will cause the problems you listed if they direct their negativity at a person with no other social connections. the problem is that being in that situation can be hard to get away from. the fact that you are on this forum shows that you are looking to better options. some people are just not available for various reasons, but that is no excuse for abusiveness in the form of shunning you. your suffering is not to be taken lightly

in my situation, there were people that were playing games by ignoring me. they did this out of a feeling of superiority, and seemed to enjoy thinking of me as a non-human. they scapegoated me in every way. it is still difficult but i have learned to be friends with ppl that do not do these things, such as shunning, gossiping, which leads to more shunning from others the negativity is spread to. it says more about those that choose to backbite rather than anything. you are not at fault here. i am still feeling as if the nicer friends are shallow, and i am often unsure. yet i think you are capable of the same. the key is to keep looking for the good people.. it is good to know you have joined the forum here. being online helped me in many ways, it is a reality test if a person wants to make it something edifying. most ppl use the net for games and gossip, but it can also be a place for meaningful human communication

You are not alone.

Its happens with me all the time.

As a child i had no friends and my parents isolated me from society. I was locked up in a room, beaten black and blue, not allowed any type of love or acceptance and there was constant mental torture.

After i got married my husband gave me freedom but with sudden freedom i didnt know what to do and how to make friends. I ended making loads of social mistakes.

But now i have learned to deal with lot of social stuff yet I am alone and people play this mind games they dont call, they ignore, they use us.....but i have learned to do the same with them...even i dont call them, even i use them and many times i ignore them...

Never think of suicide its for cowards why dont you harass all those who harassed you and get even with them. screw those %$#*@!

can you take up a job maybe then you can get some social contacts.....

And we are here to help you out.