I actually cut off everyone for almost a year.they were not ready to let go. But I am glad I let them in again after the break.
It i not too difficult now to maintain these friendships because they live far away and there is always atleast a week's notice before a meet up or chat or whatever.
But in the same city, I have no one who has my back. I was terrified of conflicts, rejection and a whole lot of stuff in my head that I never let any one close not did I get close to anyone. So basically living alone and all alone.
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AQ- 37/EQ : 15/SQ : 44/ BAP : Autistic/BAP (120 aloof, 104 rigid and 92 pragmatic)
Aspie Quiz: Aspie :130/200;NT score: 72/200;You are very likely an Aspie. Alexithymia test :135