I am going camping with a group of friends whom I dont really enjoy the company of. However, they are my only friends and i fear that if i pull out i will be distancing myself from them. I'm also giving them a lift back. I only have one more year left of school and then I can forget about them, but for now I really dont like the thought of sitting on my own at lunch. Just no. Yet the thought of having to chill with them alone with them in the middle of nowhere for three days gives me major anxiety. I cant stand two of the girls and i just always feel left out in general, sometimes its like im not there and it would make no difference if i wasnt (surprise, they only want me there for the lift home.)
Should i go or come up with an excuse?
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