Has anyone ever tried acting NT?

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yep, duh. it doesn't work

I've always acted like myself. Sometimes, I try to accommodate other people; sometimes, I don't.

I always act like myself, because what's the point of wearing a mask and being something that you're not?

Because sometimes I feel like acting like someone I'm not is the only way I'd get any friends...

Before I was diagnosed I did, people had expectations of me that I could not forfill, I would be that 'character' but I could not be it for long as it was exhausting and also if I met that person out of the context of where I would usually see them I couldn't become the 'character' and they would ask what was wrong. It didn't provide me with any fulfilment I felt more of a failure.

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I can be sort of bi-polar in that regard. Suddenly I get a spark of energy, and I feel like a superhuman. I can do things that would seem impressive even for NTs. But then one disappointing experience and *zap* goes my energy and I stay in the house for the next two weeks.[/quote]

I feel like I get ehasuted after pretending to be NT or what I call pretending to be human and then do just this.

It's too much. NTs are strange. It's exhausting.

More to add -
I am now doing a speech class at my local high school, during fifth period. I still act NT with everyone in that class, even though my teacher said "this should be a community where you can talk about anything you wish, and do a speech about anything." Problem is, I am not releasing my two special interest topics into a group of 26 NTs...and it has been a little tough trying to come up with topics for my speeches sometimes.
We did an introduction speech...where we had to talk with someone new and ask them 10 questions about themselves. Thankfully the partner didn't ask me about special interests. He did ask me about my favorite music, where I did mention '80s/'90s pop, and smooth jazz. I did feel a little worried after he did my speech...I'm hoping that the NTs don't make fun of me for enjoying "elevator music".

I am still "Acting NT" at lunch with the student council students. I forget talking about special interests, because they will either - not care, call me "weird", or walk away.

The only scenario that I am been myself is with my siblings, close friends.

Other than that I wear a social mask like every NT do, just that they are natural and I'm trying hard to mimic them.

What I call is the mirroring basis and I tune into how they speak in terms of accent, speed, slang , behavoir.. so that I may fit in faster and easier. So it actually requires a bit of acting and some time I will simply crash in the next 5-10 mins (if the conversation goes beyond that).

As for different company or client, I have to recall what was my last mask/behavoir that they have seen otherwise they will think "what happened to me?" "you seems to be a bit quiet" "he's a freak/weirdo"

Its a matter of keeping up with that social mask and not saying the truth or blunt words even if its the obvious. If we are perhaps around 30 yo and saying inappropriate things, we are a social inflatulence to NT even if we dont really mean to harm anyone.

So thats it, what I have been doing was unconsciously Wrong !

1stly I've create an impression of myself which is not me
2ndly People think that you are so fake
3rdly They are confused and think twice before talking to you
Lastly I thought I've pulled it off socially, but for NT they may feel socially awkward inside their head which they didnt sound that out all these while


AS my identity of myself is unacceptable in the society bench mark of a normal person, I tend to observe some of my Introvert (as I am introvert)NT friends deeply in how they hold themself (Presence) , the topics they talk about,(Situation awareness) how much authenticity is. How much empathy they have put in during conversation to another friend.

That become my coping strategy that I can mirror myself to be of that personality which can be more acceptable.

Yes, quite often when I'm meeting new people actually. And to be honest most of the time most people can't tell I'm autistic at all. It's more of a private thing for me, something I let loose when I'm at home or by myself. In public I do everything I can to present myself as appropriately as possible. I've been told that I can come off as a bit of a snob at times, but that I'm definitely not recognizable as autistic in public, at least not often.

Yes, quite often when I'm meeting new people actually. And to be honest most of the time most people can't tell I'm autistic at all. It's more of a private thing for me, something I let loose when I'm at home or by myself. In public I do everything I can to present myself as appropriately as possible. I've been told that I can come off as a bit of a snob at times (which I definitely don't mean to), but that I'm definitely not recognizable as autistic in public, at least not often.