I have "friends" I just don't have friends.
Not that that makes any sense. I'll try to explain.
I have loose friends. I hang out with them at lunch, sit next to them in class, work with them on projects (if I have to work with someone), but that's it. We don't share secrets. We don't share stories. They're always going to each other's houses. I never do. They walk to class together. I walk alone.
It doesn't usually bother me. It does periodically - the twins had a huge birthday party, to which they invited more than 10 people. (Our usual group is only 7 people.) I wasn't invited. That hurt. But since then it's never hurt.
Outside my group I'm not bothered by it ever. Most of my school thinks I'm standoffish and cold, and I have no real urge to change their feelings. I'd rather not be friends with them - they're shallow and vindictive. Besides, I have no idea how to interact with them - when am I just being boring? When am I offending someone? When am I supposed to speak? When am I supposed to shut up? When am I actually supposed to pay attention?
My loose friends don't have AS, but they have enough personality disorders - manaic depressive, depression, paranoid scitzofrenic (I totally just misspelled that - sorry!), suicidal, OCD, ADD, ect. They understand AS.
I have some online friends. They're ok.
But I know what you mean - being lonely sucks.
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Three years!