Feeling that your different from others

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I knew I was very different from most people, but as a child my family spent a lot of energy trying to convince me how normal I am which only added to my frustration. I mean I knew the reason I did not socialize easily was because it was litterally impossible for me to approach someone and start a conversation with them like there was a wall there.....but my mom would constantly tell anyone she introduced me to that I was 'shy' and it was annoying because I was not really afraid to socialize.....I could not.

I've always felt different. Even the smart kids reject me. I've been a loner for years, and only started to open up in the past few months. Once I suffered my first rejection it became painfully apparent how alone I am, and I've tried reaching out to my classmates, only to be swatted away or left behind each time. I'm hoping it gets better out of high school.

I've never really felt different to others. I always felt ''younger'' (even though I was the same age as the other children all through school), and I've always felt stupider than the other children. I even felt lonely at times. But never really different. It's quite a complicated thing to describe. I think I didn't feel different because I was a typically developing child physically - I was never fatter, taller, shorter, ect, from the other children. And I was never in a wheelchair or had any other impairments like that. I just had a few learning difficulties and social difficulties. And having learning difficulties and social difficulties didn't seem to make me feel different. Probably because there wasn't really any bullies in my class, and nobody else in my school really bullied me, and I tried my hardest to muck in with the other children and play the games they played.

High school was worse, especially as I got to about 13/14. By then kids had their own crowd to hang out with, and making new friends was really hard by then. It was SO much easier to make friends at the primary school!
But at high school I still didn't feel different. I just felt more left out. I had a few people tease me through the 5 years I was at high school, but nothing as bad as bullying (like some Aspies here have experienced). So I can't have been that different to others, because the high school I went to WAS like a popularity/social hang out place, and there WAS a lot of bullying going on there. So I'm surprised I wasn't bullied.

Today I spent all day with my NT friend, and I didn't feel one bit different from her. Nor do I feel different to anyone else. Strange, eh?

I don't feel all that different now but when I was in primary school I was different I also had learning problems, I went to a special school after and I felt like I fitted in with the others and had a few friends 2 of them I still keep in contact with now.

I feel the same way. A lot of times when I'm in a a large crowd of people I always get that feeling of being different then every one else. But some times in a good way though. Like I'm smarter and less child like. But also some times in a bad way like a bad different. But I do totally get how you feel!