I've decided that I'm perfectly happy being friendless.

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I know this thread is around 4 years old but I feel the same way. In 6th grade I was so scared of being alone I hung out with people I didn't even like just for the sake of not being alone and that completely altered my personality. I made friends for all the wrong reasons during my 7th grade year and in eight grade when my (real) best friend moved I realized I didn't like these people. So now I'm a high school freshman who doesn't talk to anyone I'm always thinking or just wandering around in my head. I wish I had someone to have an intelligent conversation with or just my own world.

Well I have great freedom, I can do what I want within reason. I have pretty much cut myself off from the world and seeing if I can handle it. So far, so good. I may fly into a rage someday and hurt someone, but so far it isn't too bad. There are downsides to every upside. It's always greener on the other side of the fence but it isn't. If you know what I mean.

When I was of school age, I had one best friend. We were more like brothers. In fact, we were sometimes mistaken for brothers. I was never one to hang around with groups of peers---too much going on. So when my best friend's parents wanted him to start being around others, I got left out in the "cold." There were other friends in school though (computer geeks and band friends). But I found myself drifting away from the social scene---because the social scene had always been awkward for me. I didn't like birthday parties and class picnics, etc. I hated contact sports and preferred more solitary ones like bowling and golf.

Now came college.

College pretty much consisted of me, myself, and I. I did not live on campus---I drove to college everyday for nearly 5 years. I went to classes alone at Ohio University and had no friends there. I liked it that way. I was able to focus on my studies and my special intense interests. Being around people stressed me because of the social interactions that were, and are, so awkward. However, I had a girlfriend---now we have been married over 20 years and have two sons. So I have family. That is my social life.

But friends? I have no friends in the true sense. And I am perfectly fine with that. I enjoy my family, my special intense interests, and my music.

I'm intentionally 'friendless', which is fine with me.
I do recognize though, that at different points in ones life, sometimes friendship support will help carry you through trying situations that alone, may bring you to the brink.
The key would be to find someone who shares a lot of the same morals, values, interests and a respect for private time you require without them without feeling neglected.
That way, you get what you need and so may they.