Question of WP members who are loners...

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What is it about solitude that attracts you?
I am free to do my own thing and don't have to worry about being annoying to someone. I don't have to put everything aside to please anyone. I can do my own thing and be me. I do not have to be a pushover.


Is it for choice, comfort, or do you see solitude as a personal
necesity? All of them


Is it because you fear judgement because
you are a narcissist, if you are one?
No. I often wonder if I am a narcissist but I perfer solitutue because of the previous reasons.



Is it because
you fear people doubting how amazing you can be?
Yes and no.

Why are you an introvert?
I never knew what I was supposed to do when another person was around. I was always told to talk about what intrested them and to do things that they liked, I also found it so much easier to do things without the presence of another human being and I was abused and severely bullied as a child. Even as a infant I could it uncomfortable to be around other humans.

My point here is you're wasting time
hating the world, wishing everything
and everyone would go away, instead of
looking for something to do out of your comfort zones.
Who said I am avoiding the world? I interact with people when I have to such as when shoping and paying for items but I do not usualy socolize for kicks. My dogs, cat and lizards provide me all the interaction I need.

What is it about solitude that attracts you? Is it
for choice, comfort, or do you see solitude as a personal
necesity?
I became more and more introverted as a result of feeling i had to hide my weird quirks in highschool in order to be accepted. If i knew then what i know now, i wouldnt have been so insecure about it. I thought escaping into a fantasy world, running, spinning, pacing lots of pacing, bouncing on my toes and laughing at odd intervals, contorting my face were all signs i may be going insane and turning into a serial killer or molester. So i faught the urge to stim all day untill i could finally go home and let it all out. Back then i didnt know i was doing thouse things for self stimulation. It calmed my nervous system but because noone else did it and i didnt know why i needed to so bad i thought i was somehow evil or wrong and was deeply ashamed of it.

The thing is the more i forced things the more i needed to hide. I needed to stim so much because i was constantly forcing myself not to yell my replys at people, speak for too long, expell too much information, and forcing myself not to do that made me need to calm down but i had to white knuckle it till i was alone.

Its only recently ive come to terms with all of this but ive become so accustomed to hiding that the prospect of change seems bleak.

Is it because you fear judgement because
you are a narcissist, if you are one? Is it because
you fear people doubting how amazing you can be?

I learned how to read adolecents, theyre easy and predictable but im a grown person now and adults are immensely more complex and they illude me. I fear i may do something wrong in a social situation that fear has owned my life for a long time, i havent had a job in years, im a total bottom feeder now. Im in no way a narcissist, if i had any pride for my current lifestyle or how unmotivated ive been to change it out of sheer cowardice id be more than a narcissist id be completely delusional. I know where i stand and i dont expect any praise for it.


Why are you an introvert?
Im free when im alone. or so i thought. My freedom is slowly turning more and more into a selfmade penitentary. Im locked in my own mind but i think ive found a key. Im getting over the things that make me so different or offputting to others. I know what it is now and its not something bad or evil, im not bad or evil. Being able to shed that complex is the first step to opening a new door. I think im ready to be self sufficient and move on and join the world. If i get a job or make friends and i have to go in the breakroom and pace or spin around and it makes me a kinder calmer and more social person i dont care who thinks its weird. Its Aspergers not a dirty little secret.

My point here is you're wasting time
hating the world, wishing everything
and everyone would go away, instead of
looking for something to do out of your comfort zones.

Just so you know EVERY person who is truly living in solitude knows that already and we all have our reasons for behaving the way we do, solitude is like a drug addiction, it can only change if the addict chooses that path for themselves.
Seriously i WISH i had pets to talk too and wasnt afraid of the store clerks. Im even kind of afraid talking on here. Odd as it sounds im worried other aspies might not think im smart enough. I dont really have thouse stereotypical savant-esque abilities.

Solitude is something that is forced on me. While I like it in doses, I wish I had friends to do things with more frequently than once a month or so. Sitting at home, watching TV gets boring after a while and there's not much interesting I can do by myself.

I am actually an "in your face" extrovert. However, this has the unintended, unfortunate consequence of repelling people. I am therefore a loner by default.

I'm addicted to masturbation which is kind of the main reason I don't make a more aggressive approach towards finding external sexual objects (other males and females).