How do you feel being an aspie? Please respond

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Hey y'know, don't lose total heart guys. There are a lot of the difficulties you describe that many NT's go through as well.

Boyfriends. I didn't have one until I was 18............and that was through the luck of finding someone as weird as me! Its over now, but Im 22 and hes still the only one Ive had.
The reason was is that I got bullied a lot, and everyone thought I was weird. It would have done no ones social status any good at all to be with me. I wasn't trendy cos I followed stubbornly my own style, and for a long time I didnt follow the exacting rules of hygiene that other teenagers do as I didnt see the need and I had far better and more interesting things to do!
Then when I left and got into the adult world, even tho people stopped picking on me, I was left with a hell of a lot of insecurities from it and even now I cannot read if someone fancies me as I subconcious cannot believe that anyone would. If someone says Im attractive or wolf whistles me I automatically assume they are takin the piss.

I guess as yet my brain hasn;t gotton used to the fact that people dont hate me anymore and I just assume they will.......

Obsessions. I have loads of the buggers and always have done. And Ive always taken great joy in them, though others often cant understand or dont get the interest........

A lot of the problems you guys describe ring true with those of us in the NT world who are naturally a bit different....................Life, I guess just naturally throws up difficulties.....

I don't know.

Asking me how I feel about having AS is akin to asking me how I feel about being female. There are good bits and bad bits to it, but it's part of who I am and has been for my entire life. I don't really know anything else; it's not like I magically changed from NormalKid!Sola to AspieFreak!Sola when I was diagnosed at eleven or anything.

The best thing about being diagnosed and knowing I have AS is that I feel better knowing that I'm not alone and unique in the problems I face, and I have a legitimate reason behind those problems (I'm not lazy/stupid/thick, I have AS and that's why I grin when I'm scared!). For me, my diagnosis was entirely positive. It's not something I share with random strangers off the street, but I don't feel it's derogatory or hindering me, because the diagnosis isn't anything more than a label. It doesn't limit my potential or change who I am.

If anyone can't see why someone would be proud of having AS then I would suggest that they should read:

1)The curious incident of the dog in the night
and
2)What Katy did.


With Katy did the bit about the flowers explain it.

I feel fine, thank you. It does get easier.

Markendust, I know exactly how you feel! I'm 25, and finally have accepted that I'm an aspie. It took me some time to come to grips with the fact. For the longest amount of time I was in denial. I often feel lonely - not so much that I don't have any friends, but rather the fact that I feel doomed to be the quintessential geek of the group. What I wouldn't give to be respected - someone other people go to for advice!

On the plus, side my obsession with language and writing has given me somewhat of a gift of writing. However, it seems like no one really cares that much for writing. Nor does it seem that people care much for my obsessions in general (e.g. orthography, linguistics, the history of words and language).

I also know what it is like to struggle with faith. I have gone through several "crises of faith" over the years. I often have been angry at God for giving me so many problems and apparently making me such a loser. I know there is a purpose for everything, but sometimes it seems that the purpose is hard to see. Although I have often questioned and struggled with God, I never have abandoned my faith. Every time I start down the road of atheism, I realize how dark a path it can be and how close I can come to nihilism. It is those moments that I turn back to God. I take comfort in the fact that I have made it this far, and even in the darkest hours I find solace and meaning in God. It seems like the book of Psalms expresses many of my feelings. In of the psalms, it seems that the author is angry at God, only to end to give everything into God's hands. Psalm 139 which states "I am fearfully and wonderfully made" is especially inspiring for me.

Anyway, sorry about the lecture. I just want to say - hang in there!

well, i really dont know. i dont have time to think about it.

I feel lonely and vulnerable being a girl Aspie. My life experiences have made me strong and given me the courage to do things that whilst hard are important I am going the the USA and Canada in 10 days from now and looking forward to it although I am nervous.

Before anyone says anything more about the hope that 'God' will help being the only hope (:roll:), let me say something:

This age is not perfect. No age ever is. But what drives us on is our hope for the future inspired by the accomplishments of the past.

See. Hope. That was quoted from someone who didn't believe in 'God'.



Now, I tried various things and nothing worked. So when I was about 8, not out of hope, but out of desparation, I turned to the bible and went through a religous phase.



Flash forward a few years and the 8-year old is now a teenager, a teenager who has realized that not all of the bible can be true. I could back that up but I have made my main point and gone off topic so I'll shut up now.

Sometimes it feels terrible. For years I never knew I had Aspergers. I was only diagnosed formally about three years ago, and for years before that me and my family never knew what the heck was wrong with me or why I did the things I did. People stayed away from me and bullied me from the time I was 6 til I was 13. I transferred to a new school at the beginning of 7th grade and actually made friends and kept them.

I am now going into my senior year of high school and have a close knit and supportive group of friends who love me for who I am-Aspergers included.

I don't call myself an Aspergers kid. I prefer to refer to myself as quirky.

Sure, it's a justification for some difficulties I've had, and it brought me some understanding, but it's so frustrating thinking about how different my life could have been. I see myself as fairly well equipped to deal with the issues that seem to plague me, if only it weren't for this seeming invisible wall.

It can be pretty hard at times trying to find someone who isn't in the "in crowd" at school. Sometimes even the strange people find me strange but I take a deep breath and keep going. Sometimes it seems hard but I can't just stop living my life. I can't expect the whole to stop what they are doing and care about me. I need to keep moving and never stop moving. I'm a human like every single solitary person on this planet.

Music is my life basically and that is how I release my emotions. When I come home from school I put on a CD and just relax. If I didn't have music then I would go insane.

I'm actually glad that I have Aspergers, because without it, I would be an idiot like most NTs.

AS explains everything I have had to cope with, and I'm grateful I have a logical explanation for what I've had to cope with.

sometimes I wish I didn't have it but most times I don't even care if I have it because I'm happy and don't feel effected by it like right now.
But I am proud to be an apsie because it makes me special and different and a very strong person. Despite my disability, I’m not letting it stop it from me trying to have a relationship or have a job or live on my own. It has also left me with gifts. I remember when I was a kid, I always wondered why I had a better memory than everyone else. I could collect facts and absorb them in my head, I could remember people’s birthdays or where they were born. I also think narrow interests is a gift. I was obsessed with London and Dalmatians, and movies. I even got obsessed with the city Spokane after becoming obsessed with Benny & Joon. I got obsessed with London and Dalmatians after seeing 101 Dalmatians and I was obsessed with it right after I saw it in theaters. I was obsessed with other things my whole life.