okay. so
SOUND.
my bane and salvation. my ears are oversensitive, both as part of autistic buildup, and as a compensation for my degraded sight. many a sound will drive me in meltdown instantly. especially shound of my kid's tantrum yelling. but also sound is my way to orient in enviroment, which is why i never wear any earmuffs when i am outside. also, music of my chosing is like well, a rebreather mask for somebody who cant breath normal air. sustains my life.
touch/proprioception.
i am in constant need to feel my own body, which is why i keep minor movement on, exept if in public, where i do my best to not. as to touch, very much depends on who and how. some touches can melt me down. some can pick me up. generally i am a hug addict (but only with very certain ppl), luckily so is my kid xD UNLUCKILY she likes to make loud noises in my ear when we hug(
smell
my smell sense is somewhat a mystery. it must have originally been oversensitive, then i had it fried with repeated overstimulation. i cant smell certain array of things. i can very much smell much else. LUSH shop, f**k it, i go different aisle. i cant be 50 paces near that place without a gas mask. my kid's body smell is a bliss. and well, et cetera. what wasnt fried is clearly oversensitive.
temperature.
extreme sensitive. there is a very narrow window of external temperature where i feel comfortable. otherwise, if both temperature around my body, and that of air i inhale, is wrong, and it usually is, well. im ouch. i use very hot shower for stimming and solving problems with my fried spine aches too. and need to alwlays have a window be opened, or i panick in closed room. it suffocates me. also i wear a straw hat at all sunny summer days, to prevent heating of my head by sun. it feels like being pushed into ground. or a hood at non summer, to not look too weird, ya.
sight.
my eyes are one of my weak spots, in terms of not doing their job properly. also, the same hat helps with too bright sun, but i dont wear sunglasses, because my normal glasses would get in the way, and cant afford special sunglasses with correction. on the upper side i dont have those issues with blinking, and a well-tuned stroboscope is fun to me.
taste
some textures of food are bad. generally there should just NOT be any sort of skin or fat on the meat, or i'd never be able to eat it. also, certain tastes really stim. which is why comfort eating is a big issue of mine, one im not solving.
sense of surrounding
ya, weird thing. i can sense things without touching, seing or hearing them. i allways know if somebody is behind my back, even if they are very quiet, and it totally drives me nuts. i forbid to be there, and my kid often would try to break that rule. i can sense the room with my eyes closed. cant explain how it works. something not human. something outside x5 sensorum. anybody else with that? (and ya here is the informational cocooning i had described before in other topic. i sense it)
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