This is something where I have to wonder if this has anything to do with AS, or if it's just something that EVERYONE does. I know at work many times I've heard someone talking to themselves, and then sometimes they'll be embarrassed and apologize. So...maybe this is just something everyone does. (Time for my disclaimer-I don't know if I have AS, or am just a freak )
Is talking to yourself the same as thinking out loud?
Anyway, at work I'll say short things while I'm doing something, sort of to remind myself. Like I get to a part of a room, and say "okay, what am I doing" if I forget, or something like "okay, that should work" or something as I switch computer tapes on a server-stuff like that.
By myself I'll sometimes talk to myself more than that. I sometimes have sort of conversations with either myself, or imagining that they're with someone else, like imagining how a conversation would go. I sometimes find myself kind of pretending to talk through computer specs or things I'm interested in-sort of talking to an imaginary audience. I think that fits in with:
xboxboy247 wrote:
To be honest, I actually talk to myself when I'm alone.
See, I barely have any friends, and most of the people I consider friends don't even talk to me.
I find myself as my own best friend, and talking to myself helps get things out.
So, you are not alone.
...this post. I think that's why I do it.
I'm not sure when I started, but I also insult myself a lot. I think mostly when I'm alone (or around a family member). I'll frequently have something pop up in my head-something I did or said that I think is stupid, that I should have said differently. These aren't big things, just like I misinterpreted what someone said, or realized I'd said something dumb after the fact, or couldn't come up with a good response at the time or something. Sometimes it'll be something recent, sometimes from years ago. When I'm alone and I'm feeling stressed, I'll a lot of times say "I'm stupid" or something like that out loud when they pop in my head.