Looks like I lost yet another friend

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She's the first friend to hang out with I had in a while, and we met last April. Kinda was able to keep it going for a while, but this past Sunday when I saw her she was very cold and aloof. I texted her to ask if I did anything to upset her, and that I really value her friendship. But not one peep. I guess there's a teeny, tiny chance that it'll work out and she didn't see the text, but it's just another in a long string of short "friendships."

Needless so say, I am terribly depressed and feel so awful lonely. It's hard enough to make a friend, but even when I do, I know eventually I will say something/do something to offend them and then that's it.

Just needed to let it out. *sigh*

I continue to have this same experience. And now that a female tactile signer who happens to be DeafBlind has given me the experience of cuddling and I loved-it, I'm even more deeply hurt . I have been calling myself the sorest loser in the United States of America since I turned 26. I hope I can stop calling myself that someday.

I'm lucky to still have my best friend in Santa Ana, CA. She is the only female friend I'll ever have who tolerates me not getting along with her boyfriend and hating him. I can't have friends who aren't single anymore. Most often it's female friends I lose to their boyfriends or husbands, but sometimes it is male friends I lose to their girlfriends or wives.

Shouldn't nobody try to say losing friends should not feel like losing lovers. Everybody needs others they can trust. The way I try to take on life all by myself doesn't make sense to anyone anywhere. Bottom line I should not have to. I just can't communicate with nobody in most of the places I go.

It's the pitts when they just bail and never give a person a chance. Been in this boat so many times I really don't even try to make friends any more.
I hope this person will return for you and things work out.

Mick

Mick - I was like this in the early 1990s. I never needed anybody's help in any way and I was perfectly happy hiding in my music. During my heartbreak titled "Lustrum of Loneliness" (2/6/2004 - 5/1/2009), I just wanted to revert back to how I was in the early 1990s. I only feel I can't due to 1) the fact I was FORCED to become more sociable when my mom put me away @ The Buckeye Ranch in Grove City, OH in 2000 & 2) the human touch experiences I've had in recent years.

NT people can be so ignorant at times

Update: It looks like I actually didn't lose this friend. She said she somehow put me on the block list on her phone (which is old). She even called me to say so. So....... whether it's a typical NT lie to save face or actually the truth remains to be seen.