It's getting to the point where I can't take it anymore. No one ever wants to drive me anywhere and my dad is sending the money for the driving class on the 25th, but he's only sending half and will send the next half the next month. My mom also wants me to apply for disability but i dont feel like going through all that drama. I can't get a job until I start school because my University is on the other side of town. and I'm also in a summer program which starts the 6th of July and ends August 5th. I don't have much time for stuff. and My counselor was telling me to tell my mom to get me my license earlier, but my mom never wanted me to get it. Now I'm almost 19 and still don't have a license. This is annoying. at least at college I can just walk to work or walk wherever I need to go , and won't have to ask anyone for a ride since I'll be living on campus. In the town I live in now there is 0 public transportation and it's made for rich people, particularly rich white people, which has made it hard for me to get a job since I have braids. I may still need to cut it.
I speak so much about money because as you can see it's the one thing that's holding me back from everything. I've been thinking about quitting the program, but my mom already paid 100 dollars for it. It seems like she's just trying to get even with my dad (divorced) by making him pay for stuff, instead of really trying to help me. When i tell her that he is going to only pay half, then send the other half later she gets all upset and then starts getting on me about stuff. Telling me I need to apply for scholarships this and that. I'm sick of her, and I'm glad she'll be out of town on Tuesday because she is my biggest problem. She works from home and she is annoying. when my dad came down here to visit he told my brothers and I that his mom did the same thing (being annoying) and that she needs to go outta town and get a break from work and this house.
I don't wanna apply for disability and then wait and wait even longer. so i'm just gonna go for the job. and no one respects you when you don;t have money, not even your mom. especially when you're a guy. It sucks. My mom is telling me not to get a job because disability may not accept me. well idc. i need my own money and work experience. I never had a job in my life. she's also telling me to see how hard my classes are, as if it matters, because I'm going to have to start working sooner or later.
My problem is that I need money, and I need to stop depending on others, but my biggest problem is that time is my biggest enemy. I'm getting older really fast, but time is going by so slow and I'm still broke with no license.
19 Jun 2010, 10:54 am
