How I see social interaction

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An ideal story of social interaction would go along these lines:

Me: I wanna be friends!
This Other Guy: Sure.

And an alternative, still lovely story:

Me: I wanna be friends!
This Other Guy: Sure, but you need to develop qualities XYZ first.
Me: Yay, I'm gonna develop qualities XYZ and then we'll be friends!
This Other Guy: Hey, let me help you develop these qualities while we're at it!

However, I have tended to experience altogether different stories of social interaction in reality:

Me: I wanna be friends!
This Other Guy: I will now subject you to a series of social tests meant to assess whether I should dominate you, coordinate with you, kiss up to you, ignore you or ostracise you.
Me: Uh... Sorry?
This Other Guy: "Sorry" was not the correct answer. Indeed, it is so blatantly incorrect that I am ashamed to be in the presence of one who has failed such a simple test. As you appear utterly inept at producing social cues, I deem you unfit for anything but ostracism, and shall relay my opinion to everyone else in the room by smirking awkwardly.

And an alternative, rarer interaction is:
Me: I wanna be friends!
This Other Guy: I was about to subject you to a series of social tests meant to assess how I should deal with you. Thank you, however, for providing the answer yourself. It seems that the most appropriate thing is to con you.
Me: Yay, we'll be friends!
This Other Guy: *snicker*

Of course, there were also people with whom I have gotten along, and on one occasion, the first of the above stories did take place. Sadly, I was suspicious of many of the friendships thus formed due to the impression I received from the majority.

In the last several days, having finally understood what the emotion of "hurt" truly means, I could not help but feel that many of my interactions were of the latter sort. Whenever I saw someone use social signals or engage in conversation, I knew very well that they were testing me somehow, and that they would try to hurt me later on (f.ex. by gossiping against me) if I failed the test.

Unconsciously after a point, I realized that, during conversation, many people were less interested in sharing information than in carrying out tests to gauge my social "standing", and that there was a strong possibility that they would decide to hurt me later on if I didn't pass some of these tests. In hindsight, I should have seen how rude and despicable the testing was. but I was left so indoctrinated after more than two decades of putting up with this nonsense that I have only recently realized I shouldn't bother to speak to the people who intend to put me through these tests at all.

I observe people & try sitting near the oddballs

My experience is similar to yours. Every day I wonder how otherwise decent seeming people can be so arrogant and malicious, for no reason other than you being a decent person. And I've found out that many, many other people do these things. It's like a game for them. Except when they get bored with it then you don't exist, but they always come back.

The way I look at it, you might find way fewer people in your life, but ignore them. It's a sickness you have no way of being able to help them with.

My first post here Something I've found is that there are people that mistake inability to respond to social cues for unwillingness and as a result believe that it does not bother you when they say or do hurtful things. To them this is confirmed by your behavior remaining unchanged. They really don't perceive that it isn't as easy for you as it is for them, or should I say that they refuse to?