Mis diagnosis

Post Reply New Topic

I have just been to meet with the case manager at Kaiser by me
I was told I have social anxiety
I have been researching and I am sure its Aspergers
The lady said I do things like make gestures and laugh
I have learned these skills through years of not knowing why I am not the same
In school I did none of these but I laugh at everything to cover the bases
I am very frustrated as I am sure she is wrong
Is it so impossible for me to have learned to adapt to get by?
I am able to do what I can to keep from a panic attack
I learned that years ago in my Anxiety class
I love watching people and trying to emulate what I see as social skills
But I can only make it so far
I need to know why I cant understand social situations
And I need to know why every sign points to Aspergers but my whole life I have been told Im just really smart and I am Anxious and I have ADD and I have Depression
The assessment was based on those agree/disagree questionaires filled out by me and my mother
Then I was asked to explain the answers which felt like I was being cornered
My mother was never talked to
My father who Im sure also is an aspie should have been there too
My wife whom the doctor said is an abnormal aquaintance for an aspie would know better than my parents
I didnt want marriage I just kind of eneded up there because of drugs her being pushy and me not being able to stand up for myself
She said it wasnt normal
I have to be high all day to deal with my life not to mention the adderall which I think just makes me hyper and talkative and my celexa which makes me less angry as far as I can tell
Can someone help me
Is it possible for someone with Aspergers to adapt?

Yes. I have.

I feel I have too
I watch people
I study psychology/body language books
So that I dont feel different
I didnt know why I felt different
I was always told I was just anxious
BS
I was always trying (with no success) to go out and do things
But that fact eliminates me from being what I am
Doctors suck
They just popped me full of speed and SSRIs and said be on your way normal child
All they said basically is you cant possibly feel like you do weirdo go play with the other kids
So I learned
I can Pass the basic everyday acting situation
I can pretend
But I cant f*****g understand why I have to act
I hate acting all the time
Most days Id rather be dead
I hate playing normal all the time

You can't have aspergers because you laugh??

Thats a bizarre thing for the counselor/doctor to say. I know several folks on the spectrum and they all laugh.

I always thought that those on the spectrum had good senses of humor, just at the wrong things. Usually that's what seems to get us in trouble. I think it's assumed we don't do such things because we're unusre of when to let our emotions out.

My therapist has said many times he "just doesn't see it" as far as me being Aspie. I guess it's what you feel inside. And I think it's very possible to adapt, just, as said before with social skills, it only seems to go so far. Hope this all makes sense; sometimes what makes sense to me is completely incomprehensible to most *shrug*

Yes. Aspies can learn and adapt a lot. I've learned plenty of social skills like gestures, when to laugh or smile or nod, making eye contact, looking calm when I'm anxious, etc. Superficially, I seem like a slightly awkward NT.

Yes, to a certain height. Where that is depends on the person and circumstances.

Everything you guys said helps a whole lot
Ive been having the worst week
I was told I dont have it
Yet I know I do and my world just seized up and all I can do is think about it and no matter how much I try to think I dont my brain cant compute it
(long winded last sentence)
Thank you all again