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02 Feb 2011, 2:40 pm

I posted a thread about the issue I'm kind of having at the moment involving feeling very numb. But yeah anyways I just feel like the fact that I am finding it harder and harder to really give a crap that I am lonely a lot and do not always enjoy isolation. So I am thinking is might prevent me from really developing any close bonds with anyone, which at the moment sounds fine to me(it does not seem right though I feel like I should feel something about this, considering how long I've kind of desired to have friends and such) But now i don't even care.

I mean at this point I don't plan on hiding from the world 24/7, and I have no issue talking to people if I get into a senerio where I happen to be talking to people.....its just a matter of I feel like no one really matters to me. So I don't know that i will put much effort into really bonding with anyone. Not sure what to do, I feel like there is not much I can do about this wall of numbness that I am being surrounded by.



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02 Feb 2011, 3:24 pm

I feel the same way most times. I have gotten to a point where being lonely is the norm for me. I socialize when forced into it, but have given up on any attempt to make new friends. I'm only 26 though, so it's definitely not too late. Maybe my attitude towards isolation will change in the future.



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02 Feb 2011, 3:42 pm

tasbro wrote:
I feel the same way most times. I have gotten to a point where being lonely is the norm for me. I socialize when forced into it, but have given up on any attempt to make new friends. I'm only 26 though, so it's definitely not too late. Maybe my attitude towards isolation will change in the future.


Well yeah that is the way it got for me first...and I was kind of upset about it still, like I was not giving up by choice really more because I can't seem to make friends. But now I just don't care, maybe this is a good thing maybe its not. Either way I dont see myself doing anything to try and stop this process of mental isolation because I can't truly feel anything about it.......I have the thought in the back my mind that this is a bad thing and I should try and socialize more before its too late you know let someone in while I still can. But since I don't truly feel anying I have not motivation to even attempt that.



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02 Feb 2011, 6:44 pm

I'm the same way at the moment. Of course, I know full well that I do want more friends, but I have managed to convince myself (at least in the abstract) that I don't want more friends, and that I can't get them even if I tried.