Well I have been excluded from three different schools, with the last two being from sixths form so I have not being able to complete my A-Levels, I am very worried about what to do, but I am more worried about my friendships. I have always always struggled with friendships, rarely making them but sometimes I found the odd good friend. However everytime i got excluded from school I would change my phone number and delete facebook etc to cut them off, as I feared that I wouldnt see them as much and eventually they would cut me off. At the moment I have not yet this done, for once I think I found the perfect friend who knows me well. The problem is I am thinking of cutting him off, but I know I will be upset but its best for long term. I think he wont be my friend as he says he cant speak to me every day now im not at school, and i think eventually we wont be as close friends. I dont think he cares about being my friend as he always says he would cope if we fell out, and he feels sorry for me and wouldnt fall out with me and im not sure if we are mates for the right reason. I do not know whether or not what to do, I am just getting fed up of life as its a horrible world and I cant keep losing friends all the time it is soul destroying, it is hard being alone but I think its more upsetting just seeing one friend once a week as the friendship diminishes. Is it possible to cope with no friends and be happy. I think true happiness comes from getting on with people but I can not. This friend has helped me with a lot but every day he seems to be growing more frustrated. What are your thoughts on the subject, about friends, worrying about losing them constantly, what is a friendship?
27 Jun 2011, 6:01 pm
