InTheDeepEnd wrote:
To deal with anxiety. Although my psych tells me it actually leaves the anxiety worse once the nicotine wears off.
I started smoking last year because my partner went into a deep depression (I'm talking hospitalized multiple times in a few months, had to leave her job depressed) and she started smoking again, which she does when she goes into these depressions. I was begging her to stop but she said she "needed" it. She was doing other more self-destructive things as well. I was in my own depression because I had just been laid off, among other things. So I thought, "I wonder how she'll feel if I start smoking then" because I have health problems and have no business smoking. So I started. She has never asked me to stop, and it's been about a year. Of course, she might feel like a hypocrite if she did since she is still smoking. So, now I'm addicted to it and working up the gumption to stop. Talked to my psych about it finally and she was helpful. So you guys are the only ones besides my psych who know why I started smoking.
well i never developed a habit, but initially smoking helped me clear my mind. so i enjoyed it.
but i stopped before it became routine.