I love going on holiday. The thought of it always makes me feel really excited.
But the only thing is, I always go with NTs, and when NTs are on holiday they always end up mixing with strangers, which I find rather stressful, and then it spoils the holiday. I can't just go off on my own and ignore them because then I feel rude and unfriendly.
Like last spring I went to Cornwall with my mum and my aunt (her sister), and it was ones of those coach holidays where you have a different excursion every day. It sounds exciting, because I love visiting different places, but I felt awkward with the other people on the coach, as though I was obliged to have to make eye contact and speak every morning. And then my mum's sister got fancied by the coach driver, but he didn't speak to me at all even though I tried to be friendly, so that made me feel rather uncomfortable. My mum's sister is quite awkward to go places with because she is very introverted (me and my mum think she might have some AS traits), but she pretends she's not shy and gets people's attention by gazing at them.
I wish I could go on holiday with some friends, but I don't have many friends close enough to do something like that with. Or I would like to go to a foreign country in a busy hotel where you don't necessarily have to make friends because there are too many people. I remember I went to Rhodes, Greece, when I was about 14, with my mum and her brother and his wife and kids, but I didn't feel so socially anxious as I do now.
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