Ddddd wrote:
...since I've been seeing a psychologist. WHY? I thought this was going to make everything better? I've already had 3 appointments, and it's like I'm even more analyzing every move I make/thought I have, I feel worse, more anxious and everything! Is this normal?
Yes, this is normal. It's part of the learning process. Think about starting a new class or a new job, and it's like you're being hit with a whole bunch of new things and people and knowledge, and at first in your mind it's a jumbled mess. Your brain is trying to make sense of it, find the patterns, get back to a point that you have better predictions regarding your environment and situation.
Some people are more comfortable with change and seem to be able to flow and adapt more easily and flexibly when changes occur. Other people feel a loss of control over their environment when changes occur, and that loss of control can be very frightening. It's a very rigid mindset that you may or may not be able to change, but that feeling of loss of control will abate over time as you become more used to the changes your therapist is invoking in you. If it doesn't get better, then suggest to the therapist to go slower and with fewer changes at any given time. Work on smaller portions so that you always have positive gains that you can readily see. Don't be afraid of slight increase in anxiety, as if you have a good therapist, that anxiety will start to clear away and the results will be a better for you, but you just have to muster through the rough stages to get to the better stages.