Do you ever feel like the deck is stacked? (rant)

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Do you ever feel that regardless of what you do, that everything falls apart? You try and maybe form a club or chapter of an organization and either you can't find space, or the organization never gets a hold of you . So screw joining a club of like minded people. You try and reach out to other people, and either they have their own clique, or they are older or younger than you, and even when you try to reach out to those people (older or younger) , nothing happens there. You try to go to different youth groups, you might find a few people who are slightly interesting, but half of them move. You have a family member you can relate to, they die. Someone invites you to hang out, you do, and they said that we should do it again. And so you wait for them to call. Never hear from them.

And I am supposed to care about these people? Just because I may believe in they same thing they do (barely)? Now to be fair, there are some genuinely caring people who are of the same faith as I am, but most of them are in leadership (using that term lightly). I am supposed to care about people in general? I remember hearing that for every hundred asks, you would maybe get 3 yes answers. Then on top of that I live in a town that feels 20 years behind time (not in a good way either). The town leadership is clueless on how to grow our city . And so the caliber of people is questionable. (Although I must admit that it is interesting to sit outside a dollar store and watch the people walk by, man interesting stuff) It seems like that their learning stopped at high school (what I mean by learning is curiosity, not per se their degrees or education in terms of going to school) . My dad once joked the official flag for this town should be the Budweiser flag (a lot of people drink around here (not my dad, who is a nice guy)) . Matter of fact, I don't know when, but a nearby area (within like 20- 30 miles) had the highest rate of alcohol consumption in the USA. (I am not trying to be rude about people who drink, just that some people act like fat****s when they drink and chug bath salts). The people remind me of a "good ole' boy " network. It makes me angry. It conflicts with my personality in such ways as me being homeschooled, being libertarian-anarchist, liking programming, having social difficulties, and just how I think in general. While they may think food prices are going up due to food companies being greedy, I see it as the result of QE. (just as an example). It just irritates me endlessly.


I have tried to seek out professional help, but it seems as loopy as a WHILE statement in a C program. (In other words, it seems kind of open ended) There have been a few things this professional did help me with, it seems as far as solid skills go, it leaves a lot to be desired.


So I guess what I am trying to say is, I have tried almost every piece of wisdom that has been throw at me, and to no avail. It seems like karma is a b***h, in the sense that it is punishing me for something I never did. Sometimes I just feel like saying F**** it. Any thoughts?

you know we didn't ask for this it was given to us. we were born this way. nothing we can do about that. all we can do is accept it that the world is a different place than what we tend to see through our eyes. try to work out logically how it works and try to fit in. thats the best we can do. thats the only thing we can do. and remember at the end of it all - its not your fault.

I was just thinking about the same thing. My absolutely brilliant insight while listening to my flatmates converse. "there was no way i could even fit". It was and always will be a waste of time.

Dont know what to do with it. So i decided to check the forum. There is always something that resonates me and i feel less left out. So today it is your post.

I honestly dont have any advise. Just that things could be worst. Something i try to tell myself constantly. So i try to list all the things that are good in my life. Some times it works, sometimes it does not.

Sorry if my post was of no use.

Many times I feel like NTs are part of some kind of club with all kinds of secret looks, body languge, ect that I will never be a part of.

< quote >Many times I feel like NTs are part of some kind of club with all kinds of secret looks, body languge, ect that I will never be a part of.</quote>

Kind of like a secret society? See any similarities? lol