Letting down your friends

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I have a good friend who is getting married this weekend and I attended his bachelor party last night. We had a great dinner and went to an arcade and had a blast. Afterwards, we all were going to head back to his place and have drinks and play video games. I don't usually drink, but this seemed like a special occasion. We'd probably end up crashing at his place. The problem is, I am so rigid in my nightly routine, i decided to just head home instead of partying with my best friends. I really am not a fan of sleepovers.

They are very understanding, but I sometimes hate letting people down. We'd been talking about it all day and I could tell they were a little disappointed. I just feel like I always let people down socially and now i'm doing it to my best friends. I just am so set in my ways it is now interfering with my quality of life. I sometimes wish i had the ability to just do things spontaneously like other people, simply change my mind on a whim but i can't. I've tried but i end up being so anxious about my routine being interrupted that i just can't focus on the present, even if it's something i like.

I'm sorry for the long message, but I just needed to vent a little. I kind of just had this realization about myself after last night and i feel bad. Do you ever experience this?

You can alter your routine once and a while. If you're that anxious, then frankly, maybe you shouldn't be there in the first place.

That's a bit harsh, yes, but I think it's a fair critique. How many people here biitch and moan about being social outcasts and not having any friends? In general I say: accept that friendship sometimes means routines get thrown out of whack...or, stick to a routine and don't be shocked if you have no friends.

If they are your friends, then they get whats up with you. My friends know that if I pick up my kindle and go into another room I am overloaded and need to decompress, there is no issue.

I think you should make it clear to your friends that you not staying over and being more comfortable with your routine has nothing to do with them, and more to do with the way you are. It still seems like they were very understanding, though, even if they were a little disappointed that you didn't end up staying.