regression in social skills

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Do you experience this?

What forms does that appear for you?

here is mine:

When i have stress overload, i tend to have a lot of up and down and cry and be angry often. And the past year have been worst since i started to have an anxiety disorder and panic attack. I had to learn everything again.

Before i took a fake pill of mdma, i was comfortable in a public context. I was going out often and everything was good finally. I had made my way through what people are supposed to be (NeuroTypical) but then i took a fake pill of mdma and my brain "collapsed". I had a huge panic attack where i thought i would faint. and after that, for 4 months in a row, i was having panic attack for little details such as the wind is changing direction, someone is coming into the room when i didn't expected it... I wasn't able to go out at all and when i did go out, i would be in a panic attack for hours. taking a supplement LTO3 have helped me a lot. I started to have NSA chiropractic treatment also and it is helping me a bunch too.

the other day, i did some mistakes at my work with the software that we take the appointment with and i was sure everything was gone for one of the doctor but no, i finally found what was it and fixed it. And all that, while i was feeling a panic attack who tried to kick in. Things i would not have been able to do couple of months ago.

If i am sad, its like i cant talk to anyone and people keep on forcing me to explain myself and i tend to talk even less to not at all. Even though i had succeeded on learning more communication skills and to express myself better, i can't do it if i am sad/crying. My brain just kind of shut off. I did go into catatonia couple of time in my life where i would fix in front of me and everything was out of focus.. just plain void. This happen only when i have a huge meltdown.

I find that being aspie is all about learning how to behave so others dont get freaked out. What's funny about this is also that what i think as obvious, is not the same as what NT think is obvious. And even worse for what other aspie think is obvious sometimes. (My boyfriend is an aspie too and it does not really make it easier to relate giggles ) We have different expectations and i find it hard to fit into others expectations. Social expectations anyway like how to behave when someone have invited you over for a dinner.. etc. I always often say that expectations are bad and i try to not have much of that.

I don't know if you have notice this (for the women) but when i get around my periods, i tend not only to be very emotionnal but also i lose all my physical skills.. aka the same thing as if i don't workout.

I also go into a period of reclusion where i dont want to go outside, see people or do anything else than being home, eating, reading, playing video games and sleeping. It last 1 month to couple of months and mostly winter's months or late fall. But then again, it can change regarding of what context i am living in. It's like everything and everybody is too irritant for me. That's why i use to change job every couple of months. I quit, stay home for a month then find a new job.. in 10 years, i have had 28 different jobs... but now i have found a job where i feel i am supported, encouraged and my skills are being used to their higher potential. It feels nice.

In the morning, i dont want anybody to touch me or talk to me if i am not ready for an interaction. But then, as soon as i am more awake, this feeling disappear. This part have been really hard especially when i was going out with a NT.

I am a native french speaker and i can speak english pretty well too but as soon as i get tired, drunk, stressed or any other altered state, i cant really speak english as well as i am normally. Like i speak english pretty bad even. And sometimes, even speaking french is hard for me when i get tired or overwhelmed by emotions. It's like i lose all my vocabulary.

very much to read

But I get that often. I have in the past at least. I have managed it by somewhat always acting in relation the everyone around me, the society, the rules, norms etc. It's always a factor (I have used 100000000 hours understanding this part of the world, I now know Everything. Even through Sociology). And also to, if not socialize, be with other people so I don't get in bad shape. Expose myself a little. I am too scared to lose these skills, as I'm kind of traumatized by what I become when I'm not in shape. Oh, the pain.. The embarassments.. So I'm too strict with myself to give many nuances to this.

No worries I've been doing that myself.

It seems like we are in a somewhat similar situation. I can relate to much of what you are saying, I just found out that I have AS (I got this explained by someone else) and I've also had a big share of problems prior to this.