My brother's wedding. Oh the falseness and the awkwardness

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Well the subject header pretty much says it all but here goes.

Tonight my brother just got married and I am happy for him. I'm mainly happy about the fact that he is now married to a person that appears to be a bright young woman. I was one of the groomsman at the wedding which made me happy and gave me a little bit of pride tonight. That being said there were some awkward situations.

There is no doubt in my mind that I inherited Asperger Syndrome from my biological mother. My biological mother possibly inherited it from my Grandfather. Now about a year ago I tried reaching out to my mother to inform her that I was diagnosed with Asperger Syndrome and that I was strongly convinced that she had it too. That did not go as well as planned. My brother had to call me by the phone to let me know that was a bad idea. Creating that kind of mental anxiety and stress was not my intention.

I lost contact with my mother's side of the family back around 1995. Saw a few of them sporadically here and there but for the most part I stayed away largely because I was angry about the fact that my mother abused me. However, ever since the diagnosis my life has turned around and I have been recovering well. But at the wedding I saw family that I had not seen in years. Nobody brought the past up, nor did I expect them too. They all claimed they wanted me to come around more but I still have my reservations about that. Mainly because I know that my mother has the diagnosis and I know that things on my mom's side of the family won't improve until she realizes it too..........come up with a solution to this one and I will look upon you as a god.

So ... this thread is not so much about your brother's wedding as it is about your feelings toward your mother ...

I wasn't even invited to my brother's wedding.

But how is your mother being diagnosed or admitting the possibility going to improve your relationship with her?

Because her being undiagnosed has caused her much difficulty in her life as well. She has had, like many Aspies, incalculable hardships in her professional, social and personal life. Employment for her was difficult as well. Raising me was a burden on her because when she had me she was undiagnosed and I caught the gene from her. So basically the situation was an undiagnosed AS mother trying to raise an undiagnosed AS son. Both of whom don't know what is wrong with them. I won't go into details at this point.

Pretty much. But not so much my feelings toward my mother but being in a situation and deciding on which course of action to take with her.

Then why bait with one topic, only to switch to another topic entirely?

Why not lead off with your intended topic first?