Solvejg wrote:
I discovrred when I was in my teens if I drank lots, and did silly stuff, people like me.
When I am sober, I have no social skills. I have a facisl expression people find condisenfing and my language skills are considerably lacking. I know lots of facts and quotes and seem to let them loose at very inappropriate times. From the years I have spent intoxicated, my social skills have gotten even worse to the point people actively talk in hearing distance of how much they hate me. I have little desire to make friends but it would be nice to not have people openly hate me.
Eg today. A really fashionable girl said to me that she liked my outfit and not many girls can make nerd look good. I responded with "in the words of ian malcom, there is nothing more tedious then fashion except maybe professional sports." Apperantly that was insulting her as she likes fashion. ???
This is very annoying.
For one thing if you drink, it will drive other people away. I learned that one the hard way about 10 and a half years ago when I lived with two roommates who were heavy drinkers and that not seem to want me around because I was so much younger, immature, and different. So I had attended one of their major parties and got drunk in thinking they would like me if I drank like them. So I got stark raving drunk right? That roommate hosting the party was so mad and embrassed that she made comments that I needed to clean the toilet because I vomited in it.
I also drank about others rejecting me and it felt good at the time but then the problems were right there all over again.
So the point is, alchohol will solve nothing for you but make the problems worse for you. It is also sounds like you are abusing a substance to feel better to avoid the problem rather than solve it. While I am sorry this happened, a counselor might be a good option for you. They can better tell you how to deal with your problems.
As for the fashionable girl, I have no idea what she said after so i cannot judge but it does sound like sarcasm.