People hate me

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i was brought up in a voilent household with a alcoholic father, narcissistic mother and bully brother
i was abused, beaten, voilated and treated like dirt

Neighbours, classmates and everybody else avoided me.

I had no friends and till date whereever i go people dont want to associate with me

In 3 years of working in a office i havent been able to make a single friend...im lonely,

I have tried to join depression support group but not been successful there either...only guys
join it and they want to take advantaage of me.

I approached a psychiatrist but he was also flirting with me and wanted to use me.

My hubby doesnt talk, express and share emotions he replies to my queries in monosyllables.

I feel frustrated

I am not all that familiar with your culture and social structure, but I am curious as to why your husband doesn't connect with you more emotionally. Does he not understand your issues? Does he not care about how you feel? Is his response a typical one in your culture?

Are there some social customs that cause people to avoid you? Typically, it would seem that avoidance would be caused by others feeling threatened by you, or by your having violated (intentionally, or unintentionally) some cardinal social rule. Too people who are preceived as "different" from the general population are often ignored, or worse. Do you appear as different from most of your peers?

Given your location, I have the impression that you might be dealing with issues of social custom. I wish I could help more, but I am afraid that I lack a lot of information.

Do they do more than ignore you? Overcoming hatred is a different problem than becoming interesting. I have noticed that women often form cliques to feel superior, so someone has to be excluded. Maybe you can experiment with little part-time jobs, classes, or volunteer work. How's your empathy? Can you watch for opportunities to help others? Are there any other people who sit by themselves you could approach? After a period of isolation, I find that watching people interact on TV can help my social reflexes speed up.

can you find a different job without the bullying women?

It's easy to feel like people hate you when circumstances are working against you. I've felt that way all my life. The truth is, people don't really hate you, even though it may seem so. It took me a long time to realise this. Unfortunately it's part of the human condition to prey on those weaker than us, and for those who are preyed upon to feel the way we do. I've been on the receiving end of unfortunate things myself, since i'm weak/shy, call it what you like. My mum is a lot like me too, and she found it difficult to cope with being isolated in her marriage and, in many ways preyed upon due to her own "weaknesses".

The truth is people tend to gravitate most to those around them, and if you're the odd one out for some reason you're the one picked upon. Maybe it's peoples way of trying to tell you they're upset that you're not like them. Maybe deep down your sensitivity makes them feel weak about themselves. The thing is that even though you're in a tough spot, there are plenty of others out there who are in similar positions. so you're not alone, and even though it feels like everyone hates you, the fact is, not everyone does.

first, i wish i had some answers for you, but you definitely aren't alone. i'm working on the same thing.

I grew up with abuse and rejection by everyone in my family, and then everyone at school, and now any time i try to join any social system - work, whatever - i just end up assuming that role of the outsider, the person it's okay to pick on. and it make me so mad.

i do believe i am somehow unconsciously creating this reality for myself and that something deep within me needs to change. for instance, i NEED to create a much stronger sense of my own self-worth.

HOW to do this deep work - i don't know yet. i've tried a lot of things over a lot of years. sometimes it feels like it's getting worse, but i think what's actually happening is, i'm becoming more *aware.*

one thing i would suggest, and i hope this doesn't sound biased, but i know in many countries like your own where women are, to put it bluntly, devalued and deprived of rights and have very rigid social roles and obligations, there are groups and initiatives trying to change and empower people. maybe if you can look on the internet you can find something like that. Many of them are specific to women, and will understand better the very particular nuances of your culture, which i cannot.

i hope some piece of this helps.

Some say that India has a good supply of spiritually advanced people. Perhaps you can find an Ashram where you are welcome to meditate frequently.
After being bullied a lot, we tend to respond just the way bullies want us to. Breaking out of that pattern is hard to learn, and also stirs up a storm of resistance when others must re-think their positions. It is far easier to practice some new moves in a new setting. Often, therapy involves acting out skits, with others co-operating until the awkwardness fades and new, automatic responses develop. You might watch videos, and imagine yourself in the better roles, moving and mouthing the words.
I had rather good luck by occasionally imitating a tough, popular actor in a jocular way. If you can manage it, humour helps a lot.
Every little adventure can help expand your limits. I knew a pretty young woman who often had to walk through a very dangerous neighborhood late at night. On leaving work, she would just go up to the first man whose gaze lingered, and ask him to walk her home. Every one turned into a perfect gentleman, or as close as he could manage, proud to be chosen.