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My classmates want me to know one of my classmate's girlfriend.
I guess it's nice that they're trying to involve me but I do not want to know her. I'll examplain.
She is a very beautiful and feminine girl: she uses make-up, wears feminine dresses and guys like her a lot. She is one of the most popular girls in my school.
Now, I usually don't judge people quickly or just by their appearance, but the idea of getting to know her makes me really nervous and I think I won't like her, and she won't like me. This is probably because in middle school I was bullied by pretty feminine girls that shamed me for not being feminine, for wearing baggy clothes and for not having curves. When I see girls like that now I just wish to go away as soon as possible because I think they will consider me inferior for being just an average-looking, not feminine and sloppy gal and also because I feel I have no worth compared to them. I know not all of them are bullies or think that girls like me are inferior, but I am just very anxious about this and it's something I wasn't able to get over yet.
What about this?

Well, there is 50/50 chance of this girl not being nice. But there is also a 50/50 chance of her being nice.
You can't control what she is like or how she behaves but you can control yourself, so this may be an opportunity for you to overcome your issues and toughen up so that even if she is not nice - it doesn't bother you and if she is nice - a bonus.

I find that when I behave nicely to people, even when they are not being nice, they can't really make it work if I am just being relentlessly cheerful back at them.

That is the way I view it. Your prior experience has given you reason to be emotionally cautious, and rightly so. But I find it important, for me, to also guard against letting valuable prior experience turn toxic and become self-defeating old baggage.

A while ago I began trying to make room in my life for something I call an "adventure". That is, choosing to participate in something with an uncertain outcome sheerly to roll the dice, see what happens, experience the result, and then use that result as input in making future decisions. I find that the word "adventure" makes whatever it is seem less scary and more playful.

I am wondering if getting to know this girl could be viewed simply as an adventure of this sort.