Does anyone do anything similar to this

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I am an aspie and recently i have somehow gotten a weird thing

Whenever I think of my own embarrassing moments at my old high school or thoughts in general that ive had in the past that i hate/regret i say almost unconsiously "i hate everyone.i hate everyone.i hate everyone." I used to say it when i think of those things but now i automatically say it with out thinking.

Anyone else have anything similar

I struggle with something similar. It is like I'm trying to numb my mind, but it also later becomes a habit that is hard to kick

Something like that, I'll repeat to myself 'I don't care'.

Yes, I have the exact same problem. When I remember something that made me angry, scared, anxious, or embarrassed, I will repeat several times, "I hate __." But I say that I hate different things. Sometimes "myself" (which is not even close to being true), sometimes "people," etc.

I think that it's a way to push the thoughts out of my head, but I don't know why/how I started saying that particular phrase. I used to just say "no, no, no."

I do it too. My specific thoughts are different, just as negative, just as automatic, and just as repetitive. They are also triggered by the same sort of things as yours.

I do something similar, but not so much about high school memories. That was kind of long time ago for me.

For me it's usually when NT husband and I (or sometimes NT co-workers and I) misread the nvbl cues and feels.

What goes over and over in my brain is the Three Days Grace lyrics "I hate everything about you...You hate everything about me ..."

And my head adds the words "I hate everything about my life"

I only even know this song because son#2 used to listen to it a lot; ordinarily my only music is true grace music about Jesus, so having this song in my head at all kind of hurts. It's very antiChrist conceptually.

It's the worst example of perseveration in my life at this time I think. Either that, or my bath towel ritual that NT husband gets so pissed about because it makes no sense to him but is hyper-important to me.

I do things similar to that quite frequently.

I do something similar also. For some reason I think to myself "I want to go home." I don't know why because I think it even when I'm at home. Sometimes I'll think "I want to go to sleep." I guess it just breaks the though of the embarrassing moment for a bit so I can try to move past it. I have but usually don't say it out loud.

I DEFINITELY get this.

But I do it different. I'm a positive person so I try not to hate stuff.

What I end up doing, whether I mean to or not, is close my eyes and blank my mind of whatever im doing, and just remember an unpleasent experience and how idioitic my own behavior was in this situation. It makes me feel bad when I do it but it's almost an addiction.

I guess we should think of it in a positive and optimistic way - it really is better to remember what we used to be like so that we may be different for a better future than to not recount on how the past was at all.

We need to let go of the past sometimes, sure, but then again, other times we should be reflecting on the past, as it guides us on our path to the future.